it's me again, sore throat persists.
MENTAL ILLNESS...how can your mind ,which is an immaterial construct, be ill which is a physical manifesttion? just a thot.
more on the previous topic.
i am pissed off by the depiction of the metally ill (or insane) as dangerous to society,as seen too frequently on TV and in movies.
my rebuttal is Army girl who i met years before wolf girl ( i have the sort of face tatk people talk to. i'm a natural at Psych except i feel IMHO that the industry has devolved into routine pain pimps and drug pushers.i do not deny that some brains need chemical imbalaces corrected but as infants???anyway that is another rant.)
anyway i'd driven a cab for 5 years in SF and was totally totally burnt out.so i took nine months off and lived off my savings and odd jobs.i took a guard job downtown,late night-no hassles right?
that's how i met army girl,she had the shift before me.the second thing you noticed about army girl,after her massive bosom,was her maimed right index finger.being nosy i asked about it and being army girl she answered truthfully.her unit,for she was indeed in the army (-how she passed the psych screen i do not know) was being shipped out to some combat zone so she had deliberately sliced the tendons in her trigger finger so she could not fire a rifle.she told her CO it was an accident,so it being the army she became a nine fingered typist.
one night i came in to find army girl tipsy having a uniform malfunction,her shirt was wide open exposing her bare breasts.army girl did not wear underwear despite army policy.so i buttoned her up and got her talking until she was sober enough to drive home. army girl was born on an Indian Resevation where he father was a handyman/church deacon.her mother abandoned the family after her kid sister as born so the father began (?) molesting both girls and apparently never stopped.whenever he visited SF he -you get the idea.
so it became obvious to me that army girl was a barely functioning schizoprenic on a Chrisitan based scaffolding.she had several obvious addictions-drink (Jesus drank so it was ok),TV she had one for work and several others at home to watch soaps and daffy sitcoms and sex. army girl was married to a smug oblivious knowitall ( i met him) who thought that army girl's baby was his NOT! here's the pattern,army girl would drink and quickly pass out then wake up later naked or half naked depending on the rapists.
she never put the pieces together and nobody ever advised her to do otherwise. when she got raped by her unit mates and found herself pregnant-you guessed it DIVINE BIRTH LIKE MARY then she met her husband to be.it was sooooo sad but a variant of a theme i found among many homeless women later.
anyway i found army girl with her shirt open several times and it turned out one of the night janitors was slipping her booze while on duty.one night when i was off i got a call that army girl has disappeared and could i come down and check the building for her.i found her drunk naked and curled in a fetal ball with vague memories of being raped,this time anyway.i got some clothes on her and called the police,went with her to the Rape Crisis clinic and filed a report.she'd lent an irresponsible cousin her car with her house keys so she had no place to stay.i said she could stay with me,chastely, i was stunned when she came out of the bathroom stark naked and climbed in bed with me.
Nothing Happened.
army girl was fired -for drinking (and being raped this was the 80s).
nothing happened to the janitor despite a history of violent assaults.
i later met her sister,a chronic helpless flirt,who finally confirmed army girl's upbringing.
so army girl was mainly a victim and non violent except to herself.(unlike some sociopaths i have know,more later.)
most people i met in Napa on a class tour were non violent and sadly broken.like most people they just want to be happy and productive,if society will allow that. thank the legend of Ronald Reagen for most of this messy societal failure...another long rant.
there,now that i've bummed you out i have to get dressed for a meeting to bum other people out face to face.
in other news,
MHCAN is a nationwde org with a website that does peer based counseling which double blind tests have shown to be as effective as the usual pain pimpery. they are good people,check it out.
SPIN does much the same thing for parents of children with disabilites.
lo siento,
mega
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