DEVILS TEARDROP

"A CYNIC IS A MAN WHO, WHEN HE STEALS FLOWERS,LOOKS AROUND FOR THE COFFIN."-h
H.L.Mencken

aloha 2u,
i don't usually talk about my dreams on blog but this one got an odd, to me, reaction...

CONTEXT
s most regular readers know by now, i am a nudist and half assed feminist AND i believe in some forms of REINCARNATION (see EDGAR CAYCE among others- the core or kernel Soul is immortal & eternal, see Basic Laws of Physic).

so i did sometime i rarely do last nite, no not That!, i watched Lifetime tv, a routine weepy crime melodrama called DEVILS TEARDROP starring NATASHA HENSTRIDGE (look her up, image a meatier Trica Helfer the tall lanky sexy blonde Cylon on BSG & now Dark Blue). so my reward or punishment afterwards was to have a dream which took the Lifetime theme of female empowerment or whatever a step deeper into my subconscious dream state.

now i have vivid and powerful dreams which i have recorded faithfully inmy journals, since i was up and out at the crack of dawn thursday i had no time to tell SM about it, so i chose a FEMALE nurse to unload it on.now even tho i used terms like 'confusing & disorienting' what she heard was that me dreaming i am a soul jumper into three women was a NIGHTMARE.is that right? is being a woamn in 2010 STILL A NIGHTMARE??? RSVP...

MY DREAM...
LATINA BRUNEETTE
1. i am an average height busty latina brunette who awakes in a gilded horror of an opera house cum fashion museum.it is a maze of glass display cases full of Hall of Fame Opera Fashions and the catty rich fashionista women to go with them.
THAT (PANTSUIT) STYLE IS SO OLD ITS ALMOST CLASSIC, one bitch declares.
the latina @30?, me, is wearing a three piece black pantsuit with matching pumps (Chanel?) and no jewelry.i, she, is disoriented and follows the herd along the maze of hallways to the Opera auditorium.having no ticket the latina sits on a gold and red sette listening to nearby gays critique the lifestyle of the rich & heartless...A leering whit eman strolls by and commnets
BIG BOOBS EH?
the latina covers up resentfully and responds I KNOW.
the music sounds like someone is microwaving cats but the swells all pretend to love it and gush over it as they exit, further away is a different story.

the latina gets lost trying to find an exit and winds up in a recreation of MARIE ANTIONETTE'S BOUDOIR...SIGH. she takes a nap in the hallway outside and is later awakened and ousted by surly security guards.
2. somehow she gets invited to be a houseguest at someone's mansion and the next sequence has her smearing pink goo on her chin,nipples and asscrack to take off hair.she likes her body but thinks she could stand to lose a few pounds.
3. later, same outfit and same opera house with a dark skinned young man in a tux, she has access to box seats from the family she is staying with and they go upstairs to watch the show.

the show..where to begin?
a man dressed at HITLER at 40 is talking to a man the same age playing Himmler, both in full Nazi uniform as Wagner plays in the background, a gaggle of uniformed henchmen who each look to be a feeble 100+ hobble out to do a song and dance around them about..Poland? or concentration camps or something else equally vile.

PETITE REDHEAD
4.for no reasons i can discern i (another she) is watching the same play from a different angle, as a petite chalky white redhead (like the Baby Vamp on True Blood) in a baby blue evening gown.to keep from retching the redhead flees the theater and roams the dark urban streets outside ending up at a nearby seedy Greyhound station...in an evening dress and she is maybe 23.it does end well for her...
5. i am myself again, at the bus station with a tv remote in one hand and a small dark skinned crowd around me.
I WONDER WHAT MOVIE THIS IS, say i checking the listings.
MONITORS:THE BODY JUMP seems to fit best with what has happened so far.
hokay.

BRUISED BLONDE
6. i jump again, this time i am NATASHA HENSTRIDGE @40 naked and blonde and bruised from a fearsome beating..black left eye,cracked bloody lip, bruises on ribs,back and thighs from apparently kicks,i survey my naked blonde self in a full length mirriro as an 8 year lil girl in a green bathrobe walks in unnoticed.

I WANT WAFFLES, she demands like a pissed off queen to a serf.she takes my bruised skinned hand leading me away from the mirror into a huge white & gold mausoleum of a mansion.
I DON'T LIKE TO SEE YOU NAKED, she sniffs but doesn't let me get dressed.
i am dragged along thru cavernous halls which all reflect a common theme -WWII NAZI MEMORABILIA. we're talking half track,Panzer tanks, division banners and display cases of SS,Waffen SS and storm trooper uniforms .WTF? this segment ends in their kitchen.
7. a NAZI REENACTMENT is in progress, EVE'S HUBBY IS DRESSED AS THE REICHSFURHER (Himmler)i am a disembodied observer as NAZIphiles troop into the mansion which has even more Nazi banners and posters than before.live peeps in clear vinyl outfits are goosestepping thru the halls on red carpet while other obvious dejected looking peeps wrapped up like mummies in dirty linen are being hauled around in dog carts. at a Mock SS initiation the blonde Natasha (AKA EVE)naked,freshly oiled and shaved is wheeled out in some sort of bondage stocks which leave her spreadeagled and vulnerable.they are ready to perform the ritual SINKING THE SWORD (penis?) on her body.not exactly how this segment ends...
8. EVE is clothed and walking down a street alone at night in white hot pants and a studded black leather jacket. she walks around a theater to a side entrance, both the theater and the show are named EVE.
9.i go inside, there are padded red plush seats on the auditorium floor and about five rows onstage.there are THREE EVES all naked, seated among clothed men in suits & 3D glasses..they are watching a movie...
10. the latina is crouched in a nook in her black pantsuit clutching her skull in the opera house,she stands slowly and wanders to where the rich swells are flowing toward the opera.she spots EVE all glammed up in diamonds and white satin, she is unnoticed by by Eve and her mate.
fin.
BTW not the first time i have changed gender or sexes, look up ORLANDO with TILDA SWINTON which i saw several years ago.

so,in your opinion, NIGHTMARE OR NOT?

MINISTRY OF MORPHEUS
namaste
mega ZZZZzzzzzzzzz

PS sorry for all the Typos,just got a new LARGE KEY KEyBOARD and am still adaptyping...