MY X BFF KIM

"Maybe this world is another planet's hell." Aldous Huxley

aloha again,
no Screeds or Snark today. did 5 hours of half sleep with my C PAP machine last nite and the snake oil promises of renewed glory,vigor, mental clarity,sexual potency and nirvana have yet to materialize.maybe if i were into Bondage the head harness contraption and breathing tube would be more comfortable...or uncomfortable??

X BFF KIM
i am Pro Choice and once had the opportunity to put my money where my mouth is.let me explain.. when i was in school while working full time in the 80s i had socked away about $4000. the plan was to take a month or two off and tour Europe after i graduated, a present to myself. Problem, the Dims decided to hold their convention in SF and all vacations were cancelled.SIGH.

now Kim had had become my BFF while dating my nabe Bill V. Kim was very intelligent,immature,inexperienced and volatile.unknown to me but she had decided i should be her 'friend with benefits'.even tho she was rich and bright i had long decided it would not be good for either of us,so it never happened...much to the chagrin of some of my male friends."ARE YOU CRAZY?! DA BITCH IS RICH!" whatever, i never let money be a deciding factor in who i had sex with, i am not a whore. besides Kim had a longtime chubby Somoan looking female BFF who was even richer, no sparks there either.
so Kim dropped out of UC when she discovers sex and dope,much to her mother's horror,at 2o she had never even dated now she had moved in with an older white man @ 30 to have sex and fun.(me and a gay friend tutored her on how to give great BJs) Bill V. had his limits emotionally and all his relationships eventually fizzled due to his inevitable lack of committment so Kim moved out after a year or so ( which was his average).Kim got a job at a Union Square downtown hotel, not the one i worked at,where she became a cocktail waitress.she soon moved in with three other waitresses and into a major cocaine habit, hotels were awash in sex and drugs during that era.i stuck with her during this time,when she lost her baby fat and became Hot, and her common sense induced her to move out solo.we used to hang out platonically, in fact MY EX (*) who was married to THE MANCHILD at the time,went to a party at her place...
anyway, KIm wound up working at the hotel where i worked and unconsciously or not wound up sleeping with most of the co workers i was friends with.this backfired on her. there was a very well hung blonde handsome french waiter who had the locker next to me,so i saw him naked often, and against my better judgment she took up with him.turns out he was married with children but 'separated' from his family and living in his van.the sex was great but snakebit by Bill V. she did not offer to let him move in. one night, they were smoking dope and drinking in his van out by Ocean Beach and he was horny but she was not...so her raped her in every available orifice then went back to his wife.
now Kim was allergic to every birth control pill at the time and did not have any protection with her...so of course she got Pregnant. now i had met her dragon of a mother, a rigid controlling pennypinching ominous bitch who hated me on sight-which probably made me more attractive in Kim's eyes. so when Kim told her mother she was pregnant GOOD, MAYBE THIS WILL TEACH YOU A LESSON!
what??? no money for an abortion so she could teach her wayward daughter a lesson??? Jesus H. F*cking Christ!
so Kim came to me crying and i listened,resisted the urge to say I TOLD YOU SO and wrote out a check.she was surprised, isn't that what friends are for?
so Kim got her abortion and eventually one more before she got control of her sex life.however before that happened she fell in lust with KORAK THE KILLER and he moved out from his family to live with her for a year before splitting to live with an older Japanese woman who owned a yacht and sailing off over the horizon...she took it well.
soon she went to Sacramento as manager of one of her mother's apartment buildings where she got in coke again then S&M as a submissive,dated an illiterate younger pool player then married a heavily tattoed ex speed freak biker who boasted of doing LSD with the MANSON FAMILY as a teenager, the Manson girls ran around naked at Spahn Ranch and he got caught peeking then invited in.of course the marriage was doomed from the start and eventually ended, last i saw she was working for a software start up in Berkeley, after i introduced her to Soul Mate...

i never got to Europe.
i loaned Korak a thousand to move his family out of my studio apartment & never got it back, spent the rest flying my Mother out to Los Angeles for a big family reunion. Kim repaid me when i was broke and out of work,perfect timing, this was before Sacto.we lost touch when me and SM moved first to Mendo then Santa Cruz.
nothing lasts forever...

in other news.
www.roughandtumble.com is a good source for watching the Titanic which KALI-fornia had become sink beneath the waves.the Spendthrift jellyfsh in Sacto can't even decide who to dump overboard first, HINT it won't be the Rich.

namaste
semper fidelis
mega