MY BLK LTHR JKT

"HAPPINESS IS NOT SOMETHING YOU EXPERIENCE,
IT'S SOMETHING YOU REMEMBER."OSCAR LEVANT

ALOHA 2U,

I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL BLACK LEATHER JACKET... 
AND MY CAPS LOCK KEY NOW SEEMS TO BE BROKEN...SIGH.

WHEN MY BACK FINALLY COLLAPSED I COULD NOT WORK,
I GOT TWO DOCS TO AGREE TO THAT AND
I GOT CALIF DISABILITY INSURANCE FOR A YEAR, NO BIG.
I WAS TOLD TO APPLY FOR FEDERAL
SOCIAL SECURITY DISABILITY INSURANCE (I.E. NOT AN "ENTITLEMENT") WHICH I DID...

FIRST OFF THEY SEND YOU TO TWO DOCTORS U HAVE NEVER MET, IN MY CASE A FOOT DOC AND KIDNEY DOC, BOTH OF WHOM AGREED I WAS FUKT UP-EVEN THO THEY WERE BEING PAID TO SAY OTHERWISE.THEY ARE ALWAYS PAID TO SAY YOU CAN GO BACK TO WORK...HUGE LIMPING SIGH.

NEVERTHELESS MY CLAIM WAS DENIED AND AFTER CAL DIS RAN OUT I WAS FORCED INTO THE HUMILIATING GRIND OF APPLYING FOR WELFARE AND FOOD STAMPS WITH SINGLE MOMS AND FLASHY PIMPS TROLLING FOR NEW TALENT.(SHUDDER)

..THEY HOPE TO BREAK U WITH THIS,
NO REALLY. SOUL MATE AND I RAN INTO A DRUNK SSD CLAIMS AGENT ,
AT THE OAKLAND AIRPORT,WHO SAID THEY ROUTINELY DENY ALMOST  EVERYONE IN HOPES THAT A CERTAIN PERCENTAGE WOULD GIVE UP AND SOME EVEN COMMIT SUICIDE..THEY HAD THE NUMBERS TO PROVE IT. HUGE HUGE SIGH...

SO I GOT A LAWYER FROM A LIST AT CIL-BERKELEY. SHE WAS A SMALL SHREWISH PARANOID WHITE WOMAN CONVINCED I WAS GOING TO SOMEHOW FUCK HER OUTTA HER SHARE,ALMOST HALF OF THE SSD BACKPAY.HOW EXACTLY DO U PROVE A NEGATIVE?

ANYWAY IT TOOK ANOTHER YEAR AND SHE WON THE CASE AND SHE GOT HER MONEY B4 I DID AND THE WELFARE PEEPS GOT REPAID ALL THE MONEY I WAS FORCED INTO OBTAINING..SIGH..

EVENTUALLY I GOT A CHECK AMOUNTING TO SEVERAL THOUSAND DOLLARS AFTER LIVING ON FOOD STAMPS & GRISTLE, SOUL MATE SOMEHOW KEPT ME ALIVE AND YES I DID CONSIDER SUICIDE, I.E. SELF DELIVERY, QUITE OFTEN.

FIRST THING I DID WAS LIMP DOWN THE STREET TO A SMALL  TIBETAN SHOP ON UNIVERSITY BEHIND BURGER KING,BOTH NO LONGER THERE, AND GET A HANDFUL OF VARIOUS BRASS BUDDHAS AND GANESHAS AND SOME CARVED IVORY EXPLICIT NETSUKE FIGURINES.

NEXT SOUL MATE AND I WENT TO HILLTOP MALL AND GOT ME A BEAUTIFUL BLACK LEATHER JACKET AND MY FIRST ALOHA SHIRT,& STILL THE MOST BEAUTIFUL IMHO.SO IT IS WITH MIXT FEELINGS OF DESPAIR AND PRIDE THAT I LOOK AT BUT SELDOM WEAR MY BEAUTIFUL BLACK LEATHER JACKET...

SO NOW U KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT
FROM FEDGOV LACKIES AND DISABILITY CLAIMS.
Y'R WELCOME.

namaste
mega