Chasing Sherlock...

"WHEN YOU HAVE EXCLUDED THE IMPOSSIBLE,
WHATEVER REMAINS,HOWEVER IMPROBABLE,
MUST BE THE TRUTH."
Sherlock Holmes, consulting detective 
(Sir Arthur Conan Doyle)  
FOR THE SAKE OF ARGUMENT,LET'S POSIT THIS A FACT...


this has been gnawing at me awhile...long after accusations from my youngest son.
in revues of the new modernized Sherlock Holmes on PBS yesterday Homes is described as "slightly sociopathic with evidence of Aspergers Syndrome" do tell? sounds a lot like me,no?

a decade plus ago i wrote several screenplays based on another angle of modernizing Holmes, when i read them recently i was truly surprised at how good they were and how ell they captured Conan Doyle's tone and reality..i ignored the obvious, like bad detective i ignored the evidence...

for years i have recognized i was Not NORMAL, my "normalcy" is not what is meant when others describe it, SOUL MATE has been telling me this for almost 19 years but like Watson she finds this oddity attractive and i have become less abrasive and less sarcastically abusive with age..SIGH.

Aurtism is a spectrum of mental illness/development.
lets posit that 1 to 78 are severe to moderate and 88 to 99.9 % are the mini spectrum of Asspergers, when i was younger this syndrome was mostly undiagnosed...esp. in black youths.

Aspergers sufferers usually have an Area of Competence, like the film Rain Man (based on a true story) as an artist/writer i have an acute,perhaps Ultra Acute Visual Memory a talent i have cultivated and nurtured,ironically enuff based on the exploits of Sherlock Holmes...a mainstay childhood hero after Batman. i have had half dozen "Nervous Breakdowns" from being wound too tight mentally plus some probable brain damage from possible 'whisper strokes'...hard to believe but what you see is what remains. i was Much Worse than this when younger...HUGE SIGH.

a psychic i dated brielfy in L.A.did a mind-meld of sorts
"do you always see things this way?" WHAT WAY? asked i.
"this bright and in such detail" YUP.
bneing young i thot lil of it, when i was heavy in LSD
i met many odd peeps and psychics
along The Path.

i did enuff navel-gazing with LSD that explored BOTH my inner and outer cosmos,
but its hard to examine things which you have no words for,
which is why some of my early childhood memrories are so fresh and precious to me.
the feelings of abandonment and alienation have haunted me thru all my years..
as subsequent poetry excerpts will show.. SIGH.

it has been a Task for me to become More Human,
to learn how to Love and Be Loved
in return...i hope my sons can learn this too...
but LIFE IS NOT FAIR,IS IT?

just a few recent thots on the matter,
aloha 2u all
namaste
mega