"Sell your dog and do your own barking." Stuttgart saying
aloha again,
i feel guilty.
my eldest son Z Man is getting shoulder surgery today in San Francisco (90 minutes away, 3 hours round trip) and i am not with him.
i tell myself i should Not feel Guilty but i do. since my 2 CT Scans this year my blood sugars have been erratic ( i am a diabetic) yesterday my blood glucose was 64. a number my books and two doctors have assured me is borderline STROKE OUT & DIE IN YOUR SLEEP!
still i feel guilty.
yesterday was food shopping day.Soul Mate's normal daily cough is harsh enough to startle a drowsy elephant and taking her to an enclosed supermarket during this Swine Flu scare...you get the idea. i was woozy then, i am woozy still. no matter what i ate i could not seem to get it together yet we were out of food so...somehow i waddled to the car,opened the windows and drove thru the BEAUTIFUL DAY to the market.
at times,in the recent past, i have run out of gas (physically) while shopping and have had to eat in the parking lot before going home. this was different,this was like back in the 90s when i often felt FRAGILE & BRITTLE & VULNERABLE.once again my stamina has vanished,never to return???
SORRY Z MAN I CAN'T BE THERE FOR YOU. LO SIENTO...(My Ex (*) please tell him that.
in the past i have done feats of ridicuclous endurance but that was then...now i am 61 fat & frail.enuff about me.
in other news,
THE LESSER EVIL???
the DIMS in DC have killed a bill which would have allowed bankruptcy courts to CRAMDOWN mortgage rates and keep over a million Americans in their homes.rivers of cash for AIG & corrupt banks but ,as usual,taxpayers get the shaft! if you can be bothered PLS write your congress sheeple,i will.
also 8 Taxpayers were arrested in DC yesterday protesting Sen.Max Baucaus (Dim Montna) stacking the deck with 15 insurance empire lobbyists on a hearing about improving US Healthcare,(which kills about 20,000 uninsured annually) but not one Single Payer advocate.Baucuas has stated that Single Payer is "off the table" (we gotta smash that goddamn table!) in a long and rambling pronouncement you can find on the Democracy Now website.
when they can get past the SOCIALISM/COMMUNISM crap 62% of polled americans favor Single Payer.u want SOCIALIZED MEDICINE? look at the V A & US ARMED FORCES! if its good enuff for them...?
SIGH.
big headline in The Senile today (our local rag) Gov Ar-Null plans to cash-rape local cities & counties if the upcoming Special Election of his fails,polls say it will. i can safely say that Howard Jarvis & Ar-Null have done to California what W did to the USA, a festering pox on all their houses.plus if there are DEEP FAT FRYERS IN HELL i hope two are reserved for Micheal (Weiner) Savage {autism denial } & Rush Limbaugh {Parkinsons denials} for all eternity.
GROWL & HOWL!!!
its Spring & i am feeling my fragile mortality, so it goes.
PS PAGANI
at least Ebola kills u quickly, unlike Lyme.read that bestseller from a few years ago.the name escapes me...by Laurie Garrett maybe? you are a Buddha,SM asked for your websites.given.
namaste
semper gumby
mega
Unless you were supposed to *perform* the surgery, there's no need to feel guilty. I'm concerned that you aren't eating right, though; blood sugar that low = meals too infrequent and/or too much protein relative to complex carbohydrate intake. If you can't motivate yourself to take better care for your own benefit, then do it for your soulmate who would be lost without you.
ReplyDeleteOf course, we'd all be doing better with a national health care system - but it doesn't look like we're going to get it. So I guess we have to figure things out for ourselves, hmm? :)