FROM THE HEART

aloha again,
IMHO thot WATCHMAN should have been longer and darker,but i liked it.not as much as DARK KNIGHT but still tasty.

have been razzed for including myself among 'shamanic types' or some such.
let me explain with two snippets.

1.me & Soul Mate lived in the East Bay and the boys,about 5 & 6 at the time,loved Corndonices (sp?) Park above Berkeley.now the youngest used to be a biter but we eventually broke him of the habit.so one weekend he ,the ex biter,was bitten and came and told me,so i asked him to get the biter kid and bring him to me. now i was in extreme pain then and awash in new meds so i talked to the kid like he was one of my own before his minder came and got him.i have no idea what i said. years later,same park, and his minder comes up to me and asks what i said to him as he never bit anyone again.told her the truth, i have absolutely no idea.

2.i worked at Moscone Center for almost nine years.every month or so a private exterminator would come in and spray the place to comply with Health Codes.always the same guy,we chatted as i unlocked dorrs for him but nothing substantial i thot.
one nite he says to me "you're a spiritual guy."
i denied this,saying i never went to church.
"You know what i mean!"
busted.
now pesticide is merely diluted nerve gas (neurotoxins) and his spray stuff was attacking his kidneys and liver,terminally. now he wasn't afraid to die but he worried about his wife and young kids.i think i sat with him an hour or so and told him what i knew about death & dying.it seemed to settle and soothe him.he died ten days later his replacment told me,i was given the message that i had helped. again i have no idea what i said but i spoke from my heart.

now a shaman,despite what you see in movies, is in the subtle business (craft/legacy) of energies,death & dying.experiencing his/her own so they can help others thru the process.i am self taught and probably more wrong than right but i think i have at least a touch of The Gift (or Curse?). see HEIROPHANT in Tarot.

our friend Greg,who died a suicide, was a victim (?) of what i think was a martial arts related Soul Murder,i helped ease his passage,some.he left us a much prized and much travelled Buddha as thanks, his most prized possession.it always has a place of honor where ever we go...this all came up because a lot of our crip freinds and disability allies died last year. about three weeks apart starting about Memorial Day until my son's accident in November ended the streak.i still miss them and bear the burden of their dying.they are missed.

in other news,
i have a minor kidney blockage diagnosed last week which will probably require minor (sic) surgery soon.
will keep you posted. it is what it is.

namaste
semper gumby
mega