ON MADNESS

"The earth has a skin and that skin has diseases; one of its diseases is called man." NIETZSCHE, agreed.

aloha,
cnn reports that BLACK PEOPLE ARE TWICE AS LIKELY TO GET ALZHEIMERS (sp?)
huge huge sigh.hope you guys will keep me posted when i fall off the edge?
put up a link to my FACEBOOK page yesterday, maybe all these weird peeps trying to FRIEND ME will stop and read something.naw,probably not...

SOUL MATE reports that SHE WAS THE ORIGINAL TEA BAGGER! being arrested at SF STATE for ASSUALT WITH A TEA BAG (no lie) at a demonstration there back in the 60s.

i was going to talk about NERVOUS BREAKDOWNS TODAY, maybe not.
now they call them MAJOR DEPRESSIVE EPISODES (sic) it means your whole world turns to sh*t and you want to kill yourself.hmm, maybe the suicide part is optional...unlike MY EX-THE MIRAGE & youngest son M... i am NOT BIPOLAR, i tend to be on a spectrum of Depression like my eldest Z Man. had my first Nervous Breakdown at 16 when i was prematurely (& IMHO immaturely) graduated from high school (DeWitt Clinton nyc in 1964) and my last in 1991 after being released from the Kaiser ICU with a diabetes diagnosis.
what was my point in writing this? MY EX-THE MIRAGE has several books linking mania and artistry whereas i am more on the darker Ambrose Bierce- Edgar Allen Poe variety.

this does not mean i am incapable of happiness..i just tend to see the glass as half empty,dirty and cracked. think of me as one of THE ADDAMS FAMILY'S darker relations.
speaking of which, one of my fave movie moment is when Wednesday (Christina Ricci) hooks up Pugsley to an electric chair and he asks WHAT GAME ARE WE PLAYING? and she deadpans IS THERE A GOD?

i have wrestled with the concept of God(s) my entire Life, oddly enough it was LSD and ZEN BUDDHISM which gave me the answers i had been seeking ( find your own, i am not a priest. scratch that, legally I AM A PRIEST WITH THE UNIVERSAL LIFE CHURCH and have been since the 70s,damn.) so FIND YOUR OWN PATH thru the Madness which is our society.TRY NOT TO LOSE YOUR HEART OR THE INTEGRITY OF YOUR SOUL and if you can find a SOUL MATE to walk the Path with you, so much the better.

BTW
probably not a good time to bring this up with EDUCATION being gutted like an overripe fish but WHY DO THEY NOT TEACH US ABOUT LOVE??? Sex Education ( if still taught) teaches how to screw but not who, or why. one of the most important things in our existence (besides DEATH) and we left to TRAIL & ERROR..heartbreaking and wasteful i think.if you are an ADA- ADULT CHILDREN OF ALCOHOLICS and your home life sucked ,blossoming with violence,boozing,stunted emotions and terror how exactly are we supposed to grow up to be "productive consumers"?
i sit here in comfy middle class lifestyle in a nice locale but i could just as well be somebody's "bitch" in some cramped KALIpornia prison cell.some of it was luck but most of it was realizing there was a PATH and finding my way onto it.

MADNESS IS A MIRROR TO/ON REALITY? who is to say their interpretation is not wiser than ours? looking at schizophrenia (Wolf Girl et al) i have often wondered if we stigmatize some different drummer peeps who make us uncomfortable, uneasy or feel too different or vulnerable.
DON'T TELL ANYBODY THIS OK? with the whole parallel ( mirror) universe theory (see FRINGE or Vedic mythos first concepts)..when you return from an extended LSD TRIP there is always the nagging suspicion that the universe you return to is NOT EXACTLY LIKE the one you left behind. maybe cups or colors are slightly askew or the rules of physics bent ...IS THIS MADNESS OR SOMETHING ELSE???? SIGHS

this is not the blog i set out to write, maybe it is better?
it looks like i have bleeding ulcers and one of the fx is unusual weakness & fatigue. i have to wait until my med appt in late May to get a ribbon tied around this possible diagnosis.

BTW 2 hope to see GHOST WRITER soon, a friend recommends.will tell you what i think.

MINISTRY OF TRUTH
namaste y'all
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