"Experience is just another word for losing hope."recent Scott Adams DILBERT punchline
aloha,
HAVE YOU EVER WATCHED ANYONE DIE?
strange ayem pillowtalk, i swear that some people should NOT watch "DEXTER" too close to bedtime.here i was all set to write about Capt.Compromise caving to the Isrealis on Settlements, or the CTI bankruptcy/rip off or the launch of the BILLION DOLLAR WARHSIP NEW YORK with the recycled Twin Towers steel from 9-11 in its bow. why do we need Another Billion dollar Warship right now? to chase Somali pirates in dinghys? couldn't we buy them off cheaper than that?SIGH.was going to talk about the phony KALIpornia Budgets which is already hemmorhaging red ink aplenty and scaring the crap out of old and diasbled peeps statewide.
anyway,YES I HAVE SEEN PEOPLE DIE.
i have lost count of how many...a jumper fresh off an SRO hotel near Market Street, several fresh SRO jumpers on Geary years earlier,talked to a co worker who was then murdered ; just before he left work for home to meet an angry lover with a Xms gift knife, saw an old man die ten feet across the room at Kaiser when i almost died from diabetes in 1991, saw body parts aplenty at a bloodslicked Mason & OFarrell in the 80s, ditto on 101 near the Paul Street exit (Candlestick) a few days later, almost killed a few people myself, at least i THINK it was Almost, had several long blackouts in the 80s...
SOUL MATE has been to many funerals too (but never had to kiss a corpse on the lips, a grisly southern custom especially for kids!) so once again she played Oppressed for her sheltered Catholic existence among the isolated nuns growing up whereas i, well you've read some of these blogs.
BTWsaw my PCP doc today and she loved that my BP was finally normaland my fat ass was half dozen pounds smaller and nothing new & bad had turned up on any of my recent tests. i know, i know-eat more fruits & veggies & EXERCISE! one of my favoirte tapes just unraveled across the floor, that makes four. LE VOIX MYSTERIE DE BULGARIE...wonderful and very atmospheric, like ENYA before Enya.
it was 85 here today in 'Paradise' and i spent the day in the county clinic then having Rite Aid tell me that 60 pills taken twice a day was supposed to last me until Nov 24th, an empty bottle held up to the light of reason had no impact.DEEP DEEP SIGH.
SM is over whichever flu she had and grousing about how she lost two weeks of whatever activism her health will allowed, despite my assurances that the world is still just as screwed up as ever.
SIGH,DO GOODERS...
"WHY SO SERIOUS?...WHATEVER DOESN'T KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRANGER..."The Joker in Dark Knight, what a role model for this gloomy End Times era.Crazy man karazzzzy!
as long as you're on your knees praying to Jesus or Allah or whatever, be sure check under the bed for monsters or fresh Swine Flu propaganda. get hep to that jive.
AXIS BOLD AS LOVE (Jimi was probably murdered but by who?)
namaste y'all
semper grouchy
mega
WTF? did u think i had run outta things to say? was just busy last week.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Moore's CAPITALISM
"Your most unhappy customers are your greatest source of leaning." -Bill Gates
YEAH RIGHT, COUNT ME IN.
aloha, this is hard for me to admit.
i am not a Big Fan of Micheal Moore,unlike Amy Goodman & LinkTV, its not his politics or his films or his TV shows.i do not like to see his fat jowly ussally unshaven face covering a 40 foot wide move screen,ICK.
so of course i was reluctant when Soul Mate told me YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS FILM!
so i went to see it monday and let me say YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS FILM!
rent it on DVD or whatever, its concise and informative with less jowly close ups than one would expect.
dare i say it.. IT IS THE BEST AND MOST ENTERTAINING FILM I HAVE SEEN THIS YEAR.
the fat face will have to squeeze into a tuxedo for which i predict, if there is any justice in this world, his second Oscar (if Hillary Swank can do it...).CASINO CAPITLAISM UBER ALLES!
in other news, had to give 3 vials of my thin diabetic blood this ayem at the County Clinic.got to be a first hand eyewitness of the calm stampede of parents to get SWINE FLU SHOTS, what a depressing spectacle SIGH.
BTW Capt.Compromise has just signed an UPDATED FEDERAL HATE CRIMES BILL which for the FIRST TIME INCLUDES DISABILITY,oh wow? now if you beat up a gay crip and he/she reports it...
this reminds me of my principle gripe with the ADA, which is under the Justice (sic) Department, THERE IS NO ENFORCEMENT UNLESS YOU SUE!!! a colleague complained for Two Years about an inaccessbile venue and got the usual shrug and delays. so he sued and got a ramp installed plus $25,000 of which the slimy lawyer got 20,000. this is an FEDERAL LAWYERS LIFE LONG EMPLOYMENT ACT.DEEP SIGH every rose has its thorns...
i think i am allergic to my C PAP machine or maybe life itself...i have enough physical complaints to fill a small notebook and i see my PCP doc next week,maybe she can help...
that's all i got for today.
namaste y'all
semper gimpy
mega
YEAH RIGHT, COUNT ME IN.
aloha, this is hard for me to admit.
i am not a Big Fan of Micheal Moore,unlike Amy Goodman & LinkTV, its not his politics or his films or his TV shows.i do not like to see his fat jowly ussally unshaven face covering a 40 foot wide move screen,ICK.
so of course i was reluctant when Soul Mate told me YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS FILM!
so i went to see it monday and let me say YOU HAVE TO SEE THIS FILM!
rent it on DVD or whatever, its concise and informative with less jowly close ups than one would expect.
dare i say it.. IT IS THE BEST AND MOST ENTERTAINING FILM I HAVE SEEN THIS YEAR.
the fat face will have to squeeze into a tuxedo for which i predict, if there is any justice in this world, his second Oscar (if Hillary Swank can do it...).CASINO CAPITLAISM UBER ALLES!
in other news, had to give 3 vials of my thin diabetic blood this ayem at the County Clinic.got to be a first hand eyewitness of the calm stampede of parents to get SWINE FLU SHOTS, what a depressing spectacle SIGH.
BTW Capt.Compromise has just signed an UPDATED FEDERAL HATE CRIMES BILL which for the FIRST TIME INCLUDES DISABILITY,oh wow? now if you beat up a gay crip and he/she reports it...
this reminds me of my principle gripe with the ADA, which is under the Justice (sic) Department, THERE IS NO ENFORCEMENT UNLESS YOU SUE!!! a colleague complained for Two Years about an inaccessbile venue and got the usual shrug and delays. so he sued and got a ramp installed plus $25,000 of which the slimy lawyer got 20,000. this is an FEDERAL LAWYERS LIFE LONG EMPLOYMENT ACT.DEEP SIGH every rose has its thorns...
i think i am allergic to my C PAP machine or maybe life itself...i have enough physical complaints to fill a small notebook and i see my PCP doc next week,maybe she can help...
that's all i got for today.
namaste y'all
semper gimpy
mega
Thursday, October 22, 2009
SAN FRANCISCO IS....
"When you find a big kettle of crazy.It's best not to stir it up." Scott Adams, recent Dilbert punchline
aloha,
what follows is a lighthearted (for me) memoir in no particular order,okay?
SAN FRANCISCO IS....
-the only city where i have ever been burglarized (3x)
-the only city where i have ever pulled a gun on anyone (2x in my cabbie era)
-where a man in a cheap SRO hotel offered me sex with his blonde girlfriend for comic book money...at the Hotel Dante.
-where i lived above the foul mouthed overinflated CAROL DODA'S dressing room ( see above).
-where i was threatened by a meth addict in a Haight laundromat.
-where i dated one CHURCH OF SATAN blonde shcizophrenic (that i know of).
-bought my first car, a tiny red MG T convertible for $100.
-sang in the stoned background chorus of TODD RUNDGREN'S "Sons of 1984" in Golden Gate Park.
-studied authentic Chinese Tai Chi 2x SIGH.
-seen both naked tourists & whores up close for free.
-attended a strippers Xmas Party in North Beach BIG FUN!
-where i attended both Bill Graham's WINTERLAND (before it was demolished ) and the Chet Helms Family Dog Revival at the Avalon Ballroom ( before it was demolished) likewise the old PLAYLAND AT THE BEACH (before it was also demolished)
-where i was routinely propositioned by gay men (3 accepted @1oo rejected).
-where i wept copiously over the AIDS related deaths of 95% of my male gay friends...it still hurts.
-where i lived in North Beach SROs opposite each other (the Hotel Dante & the Hotel Tevere).i once broke an SRO sink trying to crack a cococnut,i was much younger then...
-where i survived multiple hotel fires without damage or injury, i lost count of how many.
-where i was issued a guard company gun which was too old to commit suicide with (proven by another, no worry as i had my own).
-where i attended both the original EXOTIC/EROTIC & HOOKERS BALLS, saw Margo St.James atop alive elephant at the Cow Palace and had dykes grope my bare ass at another.
-where i attended & graduated from both City College & SF State.
-where i first read my poetry aloud & help organized a weekly on going poetry reading ( a Buddha in the Brooder House..inside joke).
_where i went to EVERY MOVIE THEATER IN TOWN...
about 40% of them now demolished.
-met MY EX (*) then later had routine sex with her in my workplace and often in the Boss's office ( i still have pictures i think).
-where i worked unknowingly a mere block from SOUL MATE in the Civic Center/UN Plaza
area for several years.
- where i first encountered pesto pasta & Chinese sesame cookies YUM!
-learnd the meaning of HAK WI (Chinese for nigger) & UFA (Samoan for f*ck you!)
-where i mourned the loss of the eccentric 24/7 Geary street newstand ALBERT HENRY'S...
-where i walked my Personal Best of 26 city miles early one weekend morning.
-taught a co worker how to steal a Very Expensive Book from our rich penny pinching paranoid Boss, i felt it was justified.
-where i convinced several platonic female friends NOT to have sex with me, i can be noble on occasion.
-where i first bought guns LEGALLY...
-where i found cheap but excellent Chinese,Thai & Vietnamese food within walking distance.
-where i was written up for being both a cranky snarky sarcastic bastard then later being heroic at the same workplace (Moscone Center).
-where i saw a GRATEFUL DEAD Concer at work YAWN! then later found a naked mud covered hippie in the toilet while watching stoned suburban girlrs brain-fried in wheelchairs waiting for their parents to come get them ( thanx ROCK DOCs).
-where i climbed into roped off CONCEPT CARS at various auto shows (Moscone Center again).
-where i witnessed the trebling in size of Moscone Center while i worked there, my pay stayed about the same.
-where i first drove 120+mph while leaving the city on freeways WHEEEEE! (cabbie era)
-where i got deeper into Zen, wrote some decent haiku and learned to explain my concept of Zen succinctly.
-where i bought my first cheap swords at Cost Plus.
-worked in 3 comic book stores part time (& met FRED).
-where i met my first Asian BFF (sic) Kim and with her gay friend Larry coached her into how to give a Great BJ, she got accolades...
-the first major city where i did NOT ride a horse, (NYC,LA & San Antonio previously).
-where i first appeared in several local TV Man On The Street interviews, back in the 70s.
-where i loved the mournful foghorns and the smell of wet eucalyptus in the morning.
-where both my sons were born.
-where i lived with my leggy CHEAP HOTEL GODDESS (poem to follow?)
-where i watched the cops cars burn outside City Hall at the White Night Riots...and yes i cried at the Milk/Moscone Assassinations.
-where i once shook hands with HARVEY MILK & chatted a few about honesty in politics outside the Larkin theater where they were showing Louis Malle's BLACK MOON. i remember he had shaved off his mustasche and began wearing suits, BTW SEAN PENN deserved his Oscar, wonderful wonderful work.DEEP DEEP SIGH.
-where we loved then lost the legendary progressive rock station KSAN...sigh again.
-outran then out thot a Porsche (see prior blogs)
-saw public Gay sex on and above Polk Street my first Halloween there.
-where i mastered the basics of photography in an extremely photogenic locale.
-first worked alongside the SFPD, some great peeps back then.
-where i first carried a gun Legally at huge public events, Candlestick during football season etc ( see above) my job was to stand on the field with my back to the game-to protect the players from their fans.yes, the 49ers were once THAT BAD...
-where i was once taught the fine art of panhandling couples at Aquatic Park by an old drunk who took a shine to me, was fighting with Goddess at the time and taking a Time Out.
-where i walked across the Golden Gate Bridge (many many times) and resisted the urge to jump off...that bridge is haunted.
-where i touched a friends 5 foot long LEMON PYTHON, he had many guns too including a new .50 cal AMERICAN EAGLE automatic.touched that too...
-where i marched nearly naked in a cape & loincloth in TWO GAY PRIDE PARADES...SM was with me but NOT nearly nekkid.
-is the second city where i have run into either ghosts (also LA) or psychics (NYC) and the first where i encountered AN INTENSE AURA OF CORRUPT EVIL...
-where i did a lot of stupid immature and often hurtful things.
-not what it used to be,fun & affordable and blue collar friendly.
-SAN FRANCISCO IS NOW THE BRITTLE JAGGED NEON SLUTTY BITCH TRIBUTE TO EXCESS, sic transit gloria mundi....
all this will probably be explained in future blogs, poems & pictures (now that i have a scanner).
STAY TUNED...
namaste y'all
semper hierophanty
mega
aloha,
what follows is a lighthearted (for me) memoir in no particular order,okay?
SAN FRANCISCO IS....
-the only city where i have ever been burglarized (3x)
-the only city where i have ever pulled a gun on anyone (2x in my cabbie era)
-where a man in a cheap SRO hotel offered me sex with his blonde girlfriend for comic book money...at the Hotel Dante.
-where i lived above the foul mouthed overinflated CAROL DODA'S dressing room ( see above).
-where i was threatened by a meth addict in a Haight laundromat.
-where i dated one CHURCH OF SATAN blonde shcizophrenic (that i know of).
-bought my first car, a tiny red MG T convertible for $100.
-sang in the stoned background chorus of TODD RUNDGREN'S "Sons of 1984" in Golden Gate Park.
-studied authentic Chinese Tai Chi 2x SIGH.
-seen both naked tourists & whores up close for free.
-attended a strippers Xmas Party in North Beach BIG FUN!
-where i attended both Bill Graham's WINTERLAND (before it was demolished ) and the Chet Helms Family Dog Revival at the Avalon Ballroom ( before it was demolished) likewise the old PLAYLAND AT THE BEACH (before it was also demolished)
-where i was routinely propositioned by gay men (3 accepted @1oo rejected).
-where i wept copiously over the AIDS related deaths of 95% of my male gay friends...it still hurts.
-where i lived in North Beach SROs opposite each other (the Hotel Dante & the Hotel Tevere).i once broke an SRO sink trying to crack a cococnut,i was much younger then...
-where i survived multiple hotel fires without damage or injury, i lost count of how many.
-where i was issued a guard company gun which was too old to commit suicide with (proven by another, no worry as i had my own).
-where i attended both the original EXOTIC/EROTIC & HOOKERS BALLS, saw Margo St.James atop alive elephant at the Cow Palace and had dykes grope my bare ass at another.
-where i attended & graduated from both City College & SF State.
-where i first read my poetry aloud & help organized a weekly on going poetry reading ( a Buddha in the Brooder House..inside joke).
_where i went to EVERY MOVIE THEATER IN TOWN...
about 40% of them now demolished.
-met MY EX (*) then later had routine sex with her in my workplace and often in the Boss's office ( i still have pictures i think).
-where i worked unknowingly a mere block from SOUL MATE in the Civic Center/UN Plaza
area for several years.
- where i first encountered pesto pasta & Chinese sesame cookies YUM!
-learnd the meaning of HAK WI (Chinese for nigger) & UFA (Samoan for f*ck you!)
-where i mourned the loss of the eccentric 24/7 Geary street newstand ALBERT HENRY'S...
-where i walked my Personal Best of 26 city miles early one weekend morning.
-taught a co worker how to steal a Very Expensive Book from our rich penny pinching paranoid Boss, i felt it was justified.
-where i convinced several platonic female friends NOT to have sex with me, i can be noble on occasion.
-where i first bought guns LEGALLY...
-where i found cheap but excellent Chinese,Thai & Vietnamese food within walking distance.
-where i was written up for being both a cranky snarky sarcastic bastard then later being heroic at the same workplace (Moscone Center).
-where i saw a GRATEFUL DEAD Concer at work YAWN! then later found a naked mud covered hippie in the toilet while watching stoned suburban girlrs brain-fried in wheelchairs waiting for their parents to come get them ( thanx ROCK DOCs).
-where i climbed into roped off CONCEPT CARS at various auto shows (Moscone Center again).
-where i witnessed the trebling in size of Moscone Center while i worked there, my pay stayed about the same.
-where i first drove 120+mph while leaving the city on freeways WHEEEEE! (cabbie era)
-where i got deeper into Zen, wrote some decent haiku and learned to explain my concept of Zen succinctly.
-where i bought my first cheap swords at Cost Plus.
-worked in 3 comic book stores part time (& met FRED).
-where i met my first Asian BFF (sic) Kim and with her gay friend Larry coached her into how to give a Great BJ, she got accolades...
-the first major city where i did NOT ride a horse, (NYC,LA & San Antonio previously).
-where i first appeared in several local TV Man On The Street interviews, back in the 70s.
-where i loved the mournful foghorns and the smell of wet eucalyptus in the morning.
-where both my sons were born.
-where i lived with my leggy CHEAP HOTEL GODDESS (poem to follow?)
-where i watched the cops cars burn outside City Hall at the White Night Riots...and yes i cried at the Milk/Moscone Assassinations.
-where i once shook hands with HARVEY MILK & chatted a few about honesty in politics outside the Larkin theater where they were showing Louis Malle's BLACK MOON. i remember he had shaved off his mustasche and began wearing suits, BTW SEAN PENN deserved his Oscar, wonderful wonderful work.DEEP DEEP SIGH.
-where we loved then lost the legendary progressive rock station KSAN...sigh again.
-outran then out thot a Porsche (see prior blogs)
-saw public Gay sex on and above Polk Street my first Halloween there.
-where i mastered the basics of photography in an extremely photogenic locale.
-first worked alongside the SFPD, some great peeps back then.
-where i first carried a gun Legally at huge public events, Candlestick during football season etc ( see above) my job was to stand on the field with my back to the game-to protect the players from their fans.yes, the 49ers were once THAT BAD...
-where i was once taught the fine art of panhandling couples at Aquatic Park by an old drunk who took a shine to me, was fighting with Goddess at the time and taking a Time Out.
-where i walked across the Golden Gate Bridge (many many times) and resisted the urge to jump off...that bridge is haunted.
-where i touched a friends 5 foot long LEMON PYTHON, he had many guns too including a new .50 cal AMERICAN EAGLE automatic.touched that too...
-where i marched nearly naked in a cape & loincloth in TWO GAY PRIDE PARADES...SM was with me but NOT nearly nekkid.
-is the second city where i have run into either ghosts (also LA) or psychics (NYC) and the first where i encountered AN INTENSE AURA OF CORRUPT EVIL...
-where i did a lot of stupid immature and often hurtful things.
-not what it used to be,fun & affordable and blue collar friendly.
-SAN FRANCISCO IS NOW THE BRITTLE JAGGED NEON SLUTTY BITCH TRIBUTE TO EXCESS, sic transit gloria mundi....
all this will probably be explained in future blogs, poems & pictures (now that i have a scanner).
STAY TUNED...
namaste y'all
semper hierophanty
mega
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
GUNGA DIN
"We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give. "
-Sir Winston Churchill AMEN TO THAT...
aloha, ever have a loose tooth that really bugs you?
Afghanistan feels like that to me.
RUDYARD KIPLING wrote several books which became films GUNGA DIN (think the Alamo at Khyber Pass) THE JUNGLE BOOK & THE MAN WHO WOULD BE KING ( check www.IMDB,COM).
Kipling, aside from being a halfway decent poet, was also a noted colonalist & racist. he coined the term WHITE MAN'S BURDEN to describe the Duty of Civilized Countries to invade & exploit these Savages.SIGH.
nowadays we use the guise of charity, the World Bank, International Monetary Fund and some NGOs to do much the same.
GOOD NEWS
yesterday the (9th Circuit Court stopped the irrational and potentially lethal IHSS curs here in KALIpornia and today the sun is shining,coincidence? go to www.cdcan.us for all the details.
ON FILM
still haven't seen Micheal Moore's new film and my meds co-pay is rapidluy eating it's way thru my monthly allowance.CURSE THEE,DONUT HOLE...ARRRRGH! wanted to see SURROGATES & PARNDORUM but Rite Aid got the money instead,SIGH.
AH BLISS
spent two hours in the warm pool at PT, i wanted to grow fins & gills just to stay there forever, rather than return to the outside world of storme und drang...see, even a cranky guy like me can find bliss outside my home & Man Cave. no fresh bad news from MY EX (*) altho i have been offline for a few days, SOUL MATE is either slowly recovering or having a relapse, her recent mood has been as dark as my own.Cripes, do i sound LIKE THAT? (humor attempt)
BTW www.democrynow.org for all the latest in bad news from a slightly lefty perspective.
that's all i got today, PT stopped most of the ache in my bad knee, most of my spinal agony is temporarily abated now if i could only find out what i am hyper allergic to and stop the mucous flow i would be..not exactly happy, satisfied???
hi PAGANI,stay well...health reform is coming,glacially slow as usual.
namaste y'all
semper gummo (the 4th Marx Bros)
mega
-Sir Winston Churchill AMEN TO THAT...
aloha, ever have a loose tooth that really bugs you?
Afghanistan feels like that to me.
RUDYARD KIPLING wrote several books which became films GUNGA DIN (think the Alamo at Khyber Pass) THE JUNGLE BOOK & THE MAN WHO WOULD BE KING ( check www.IMDB,COM).
Kipling, aside from being a halfway decent poet, was also a noted colonalist & racist. he coined the term WHITE MAN'S BURDEN to describe the Duty of Civilized Countries to invade & exploit these Savages.SIGH.
nowadays we use the guise of charity, the World Bank, International Monetary Fund and some NGOs to do much the same.
GOOD NEWS
yesterday the (9th Circuit Court stopped the irrational and potentially lethal IHSS curs here in KALIpornia and today the sun is shining,coincidence? go to www.cdcan.us for all the details.
ON FILM
still haven't seen Micheal Moore's new film and my meds co-pay is rapidluy eating it's way thru my monthly allowance.CURSE THEE,DONUT HOLE...ARRRRGH! wanted to see SURROGATES & PARNDORUM but Rite Aid got the money instead,SIGH.
AH BLISS
spent two hours in the warm pool at PT, i wanted to grow fins & gills just to stay there forever, rather than return to the outside world of storme und drang...see, even a cranky guy like me can find bliss outside my home & Man Cave. no fresh bad news from MY EX (*) altho i have been offline for a few days, SOUL MATE is either slowly recovering or having a relapse, her recent mood has been as dark as my own.Cripes, do i sound LIKE THAT? (humor attempt)
BTW www.democrynow.org for all the latest in bad news from a slightly lefty perspective.
that's all i got today, PT stopped most of the ache in my bad knee, most of my spinal agony is temporarily abated now if i could only find out what i am hyper allergic to and stop the mucous flow i would be..not exactly happy, satisfied???
hi PAGANI,stay well...health reform is coming,glacially slow as usual.
namaste y'all
semper gummo (the 4th Marx Bros)
mega
Saturday, October 17, 2009
GENESIS RIDDLES?
"I wouldn't recommend sex,drugs or insanity for everyone, but they've always worked for me." Hunter S.Thompson. gonzo writer,celebrity & crip suicide
aloha, the folowing is not Gospel but why i got kicked out of Sunday School if memory serves...plus what i learned later.
GENESIS
ever notice that mankind is created TWICE? now there are many problems with hebrew>greek>latin translations...in the original ELOHIM (mistranslated as God) is a PLURAL NOUN, it is possible in lost lore that a group of Gods created mankind or as some suggest GOD HAS A WIFE,SOPHIA. JEHOVAH (YVWH) is the name of a single God,hmmm not THE GOD immaterial and eternal as we were taught in sunday school. SIGH..
in Jewish tradition ADAM (ADHAM) had a first wife LILITH who was created at the same time as Adam and so demanded EQUALITY and refused some of his sexual demands. Lilith was expelled from EDEN (possibly Iraq or Saudi Arabia per aerial photography-Tigris,Euphrates and Pishon rivers delta is now underwater?) and became the Queen of Demons. EVE (HEVA) was then created as a more submissive model.
speaking of submissive,why exactly were THE SERPENT & TREE OF KNOWLEDGE created in such a paradise?
now the Serpent is a pagan symbol worldwide for eternal life,rebirth & wisdom (see NAGA, SERPENT WORSHIP IN INDIA, & SNAKE HANDLING FUNDAMENTALISM) now corrupted by hebrew folklore and the tree likewise (see Ygdrrasil {sp?} in Norse myths and the Bodhi tree in Buddhism etc etc). some occultists speculate that the ORIGINAL SIN OF MAN was not Disobedience but Curiousity or perhaps AMBITION? YE SHALL BE AS GODS (! note the plural usage).
NEPHILIM the Giants of the Earth who slept with the daughters (!) of Man, which ones were these exactly ? now NEPHILIM does not translate in anyway whatsoever as Giants, it means THE FALLEN as in perhaps angels? there is a lot of other stuff including YVWH WALKING IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN, walking around and not being omniscient??? also the APPLE was probably a FIG as apples did not grow in Eden nor figs in Rome, remember the aprons of fig leaves to hide their nakendness? also the History channel mentioned figs are cursed 17 times in the OT.just as it mentions YVWH has an ANGER MANAGEMENT PROBLEM in the OT.
THE MARK OF CAIN
unlike Mormon beliefs the Mark was apparently not black skin, nobody knows what it really was but some speculate the Mark was BIG BLACK DOG (annother long held occult symbol) sent to PROTECT CAIN FROM HARM !!! East of Eden was the LAND OF NOD, NOD means strangers in ancient hebrew, so who exactly was Cain's unnamed wife? and according to Genesis Cain built the FIRST CITY, so perhaps modern civilization with all its flaws is the true Mark of Cain? plundering the fertile soil of GAIA,Mother Earth in the name of greed, ambition,conquest and territory?
i think i will end on that note before i get too screechy and pedantic, enjoy your day.
namaste y'all
semper gonzo
mega
aloha, the folowing is not Gospel but why i got kicked out of Sunday School if memory serves...plus what i learned later.
GENESIS
ever notice that mankind is created TWICE? now there are many problems with hebrew>greek>latin translations...in the original ELOHIM (mistranslated as God) is a PLURAL NOUN, it is possible in lost lore that a group of Gods created mankind or as some suggest GOD HAS A WIFE,SOPHIA. JEHOVAH (YVWH) is the name of a single God,hmmm not THE GOD immaterial and eternal as we were taught in sunday school. SIGH..
in Jewish tradition ADAM (ADHAM) had a first wife LILITH who was created at the same time as Adam and so demanded EQUALITY and refused some of his sexual demands. Lilith was expelled from EDEN (possibly Iraq or Saudi Arabia per aerial photography-Tigris,Euphrates and Pishon rivers delta is now underwater?) and became the Queen of Demons. EVE (HEVA) was then created as a more submissive model.
speaking of submissive,why exactly were THE SERPENT & TREE OF KNOWLEDGE created in such a paradise?
now the Serpent is a pagan symbol worldwide for eternal life,rebirth & wisdom (see NAGA, SERPENT WORSHIP IN INDIA, & SNAKE HANDLING FUNDAMENTALISM) now corrupted by hebrew folklore and the tree likewise (see Ygdrrasil {sp?} in Norse myths and the Bodhi tree in Buddhism etc etc). some occultists speculate that the ORIGINAL SIN OF MAN was not Disobedience but Curiousity or perhaps AMBITION? YE SHALL BE AS GODS (! note the plural usage).
NEPHILIM the Giants of the Earth who slept with the daughters (!) of Man, which ones were these exactly ? now NEPHILIM does not translate in anyway whatsoever as Giants, it means THE FALLEN as in perhaps angels? there is a lot of other stuff including YVWH WALKING IN THE GARDEN OF EDEN, walking around and not being omniscient??? also the APPLE was probably a FIG as apples did not grow in Eden nor figs in Rome, remember the aprons of fig leaves to hide their nakendness? also the History channel mentioned figs are cursed 17 times in the OT.just as it mentions YVWH has an ANGER MANAGEMENT PROBLEM in the OT.
THE MARK OF CAIN
unlike Mormon beliefs the Mark was apparently not black skin, nobody knows what it really was but some speculate the Mark was BIG BLACK DOG (annother long held occult symbol) sent to PROTECT CAIN FROM HARM !!! East of Eden was the LAND OF NOD, NOD means strangers in ancient hebrew, so who exactly was Cain's unnamed wife? and according to Genesis Cain built the FIRST CITY, so perhaps modern civilization with all its flaws is the true Mark of Cain? plundering the fertile soil of GAIA,Mother Earth in the name of greed, ambition,conquest and territory?
i think i will end on that note before i get too screechy and pedantic, enjoy your day.
namaste y'all
semper gonzo
mega
Thursday, October 15, 2009
ST JUDAS?
Yes Pagani, you're probably right about Esau. my mind and thots are racing recently, think there is too much alcohol in the homeopathy meds, me on MSNBC? I LIKE IT.
aloha,
years ago i set out to write a stage play ST.JUDAS REICHSTAG FIRE, sort of a homage to Shaw's witty DON JUAN IN HELL which i had seen and loved on PBS. the concept was fairly simple, Judas is in Hell with the Nazi mastermind REINHARD HEYDRICH ( deputy to Himmler and Eichmann's boss), a sexy caberet singer(think a young Liza Manelli in CABERET) and scary pop ups by JACK THE RIPPER.sounds simple right? at least that's what i thought at first.now i have been fascinated by the Nazi history and mindset since puberty and likewise Jack the Ripper, researching the Weimar Republic was a snap but Judas...
'THINK NOT THAT I COME TO SEND PEACE ON EARTH:I CAME NOT TO SEND PEACE,BUT A SWORD." MATT 10:34 King James Bible (sic)
first of all either the Bible is THE WORD OF GOD or it isn't ,either way it was designed and often deleted by Papal Policy & Politics,it is an elephant deigned by a biased committee with many books expunged THE APOCHRYPA (sp?) .trust me in this one, i have the research books, this was all done before the internet.
MARY MAGDALENE was NOT a whore, this is mentioned nowhere in the Bible. this was Papal politics concerning MARY MOTHER of God and ISIS THE GREAT MOTHER of Paganism, as usual too many strong women were scary to weak men so MM became a whore, remember that she was the first one to see the Risen Christ...and women still wanted to be priests which started the first Inquisition against the heretic CATHARS in france & spain.BTW when did Lazurus die again? just askin'
JESUS HIMSELF, this is also problemical as Jesus (Yesu?) is a fairly common name of the era, in fact a revolt lead by another messiah Jesus (also from Galilee) was put down about ten years before the birth of the Jesus Christ, so one can see how Jesus and his ilk might be scary to the Roman Occupation. also Pontious PIlate, a historical figure , was no dithering ruler-remember this was aimed at people of what became the ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH and Pilate was fairly ruthless in his slaughter of Jews by all accounts i read.also the Zealots & Maccabees were constantly revolting and you find members of them in Jesus's flock. speaking of flock.. all the experts i read said that the movie version of Jesus and his Disciples is incorrect,Jesus traveled with a crowd of maybe hundreds including women and children.it was a mob not an army but still...
now either Jesus was the SON OF GOD or he wasn't, either way lets accept (for the sake of argument) that JC TRULY BELIEVED he was the predicted prophet/messiah,okay?
JUDAH BAR SIMON
Judah Bar (son of ) Simon (off topic BARRABAS_BAR ABBAS slang for Son of the Father or bastard, possibly also named Jesus, think of the unholy pun in choosing him over JC)
JUDAS ISCARIOT IS A NICKNAME!
SCARRII was a short easily concealed stabbing sword used in political assassinations, the term is still used in Sicily and the Middle East { Jack the Ripper meet Judas the Dagger, that seemed to work} the deeper i read the messier it got. many Bible scholars think that Judas was the trusted treasurer for the whole mob, HE HELD THE MONEY...
here more problems arise, now if JC is INFALLIBLE ( like the Pope SIGH) why did he give the power to heal to Judas also??? was Judas or MM THE (unnamed) BELOVED DISCIPLE? now Judaisim, like kung fu, teaches mostly by oral tradition and some students/vessels are given more than others. this is a known fact so we can't expect all 12 to get the same amount or degree of teaching.
now all the prophecy involved with JC predicts he will meet with a messy end, JESUS HAD TO DIE AS PROPHESIED -so who did he (JC) chose to 'BETRAY' him but the most trusted? as Treasurer Judas had no need for more money and my sword reference, in classical mythology the sword is used to cut thru delusions and ignorance, so Judas the Dagger as a holy pun? one to Betray and one to SEE the Risen Christ, fairly simple right.
GETHESAME (sp?)
after the money changers JC was easy to identify but the public kiss (of student to master) sealed the deal & who was that naked kid running away, another hidden metaphor?? now the Bible recounts that Judas either died in a field or hanged himself, why both? in my play i had him die fighting at MASADA, which seemed to me more likely.did you know there is a book called THE GOSPEL OF JUDAS found within the last decades which also makes some of these points? ASIMOV'S GUIDE TO THE BIBLE is also handy for a quick reference, the NAG HAMMADI LIBRARY, THE PASSOVER PLOT etc etc etc..SOUL MATE once asked me why, as a Zen Buddhist, i had so many books on historic Christianity..this is why. fascinating stuff which i think deepens the mystery and joy of Christianity, did i mention as a child i was expelled from sunday school for asking too many questions???? still do.
so i never did write the play but the research was FUN!
namaste y'all
mega
aloha,
years ago i set out to write a stage play ST.JUDAS REICHSTAG FIRE, sort of a homage to Shaw's witty DON JUAN IN HELL which i had seen and loved on PBS. the concept was fairly simple, Judas is in Hell with the Nazi mastermind REINHARD HEYDRICH ( deputy to Himmler and Eichmann's boss), a sexy caberet singer(think a young Liza Manelli in CABERET) and scary pop ups by JACK THE RIPPER.sounds simple right? at least that's what i thought at first.now i have been fascinated by the Nazi history and mindset since puberty and likewise Jack the Ripper, researching the Weimar Republic was a snap but Judas...
'THINK NOT THAT I COME TO SEND PEACE ON EARTH:I CAME NOT TO SEND PEACE,BUT A SWORD." MATT 10:34 King James Bible (sic)
first of all either the Bible is THE WORD OF GOD or it isn't ,either way it was designed and often deleted by Papal Policy & Politics,it is an elephant deigned by a biased committee with many books expunged THE APOCHRYPA (sp?) .trust me in this one, i have the research books, this was all done before the internet.
MARY MAGDALENE was NOT a whore, this is mentioned nowhere in the Bible. this was Papal politics concerning MARY MOTHER of God and ISIS THE GREAT MOTHER of Paganism, as usual too many strong women were scary to weak men so MM became a whore, remember that she was the first one to see the Risen Christ...and women still wanted to be priests which started the first Inquisition against the heretic CATHARS in france & spain.BTW when did Lazurus die again? just askin'
JESUS HIMSELF, this is also problemical as Jesus (Yesu?) is a fairly common name of the era, in fact a revolt lead by another messiah Jesus (also from Galilee) was put down about ten years before the birth of the Jesus Christ, so one can see how Jesus and his ilk might be scary to the Roman Occupation. also Pontious PIlate, a historical figure , was no dithering ruler-remember this was aimed at people of what became the ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH and Pilate was fairly ruthless in his slaughter of Jews by all accounts i read.also the Zealots & Maccabees were constantly revolting and you find members of them in Jesus's flock. speaking of flock.. all the experts i read said that the movie version of Jesus and his Disciples is incorrect,Jesus traveled with a crowd of maybe hundreds including women and children.it was a mob not an army but still...
now either Jesus was the SON OF GOD or he wasn't, either way lets accept (for the sake of argument) that JC TRULY BELIEVED he was the predicted prophet/messiah,okay?
JUDAH BAR SIMON
Judah Bar (son of ) Simon (off topic BARRABAS_BAR ABBAS slang for Son of the Father or bastard, possibly also named Jesus, think of the unholy pun in choosing him over JC)
JUDAS ISCARIOT IS A NICKNAME!
SCARRII was a short easily concealed stabbing sword used in political assassinations, the term is still used in Sicily and the Middle East { Jack the Ripper meet Judas the Dagger, that seemed to work} the deeper i read the messier it got. many Bible scholars think that Judas was the trusted treasurer for the whole mob, HE HELD THE MONEY...
here more problems arise, now if JC is INFALLIBLE ( like the Pope SIGH) why did he give the power to heal to Judas also??? was Judas or MM THE (unnamed) BELOVED DISCIPLE? now Judaisim, like kung fu, teaches mostly by oral tradition and some students/vessels are given more than others. this is a known fact so we can't expect all 12 to get the same amount or degree of teaching.
now all the prophecy involved with JC predicts he will meet with a messy end, JESUS HAD TO DIE AS PROPHESIED -so who did he (JC) chose to 'BETRAY' him but the most trusted? as Treasurer Judas had no need for more money and my sword reference, in classical mythology the sword is used to cut thru delusions and ignorance, so Judas the Dagger as a holy pun? one to Betray and one to SEE the Risen Christ, fairly simple right.
GETHESAME (sp?)
after the money changers JC was easy to identify but the public kiss (of student to master) sealed the deal & who was that naked kid running away, another hidden metaphor?? now the Bible recounts that Judas either died in a field or hanged himself, why both? in my play i had him die fighting at MASADA, which seemed to me more likely.did you know there is a book called THE GOSPEL OF JUDAS found within the last decades which also makes some of these points? ASIMOV'S GUIDE TO THE BIBLE is also handy for a quick reference, the NAG HAMMADI LIBRARY, THE PASSOVER PLOT etc etc etc..SOUL MATE once asked me why, as a Zen Buddhist, i had so many books on historic Christianity..this is why. fascinating stuff which i think deepens the mystery and joy of Christianity, did i mention as a child i was expelled from sunday school for asking too many questions???? still do.
so i never did write the play but the research was FUN!
namaste y'all
mega
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
TOXIC OPTIMISM
"In a battle of wits, they would be unarmed." NYC adage
aloha,
BFD Capt.Compromise finally got Olympia Snow's single GOP vote after months of secret negotiating with THE GANG OF SIX and giving away SINGLE PAYER...SIGH.
BARBARA EHRENREICH has written another book and oddly enough it pertains to DISABILITY too. 'BRIGHT SIDED' is about the relentless American Pursuit of Optimism from Christopher Columbus to George W. Bush and Oprah.
think of it as the dumbassification/Disneyfication of America. LIFE ISN'T FAIR & HAPPY ENDINGS ARE RARE..friends die, children die, parents die, people betray & disappoint you, divorce, bankruptcy, our bodies age & die, our health fails,banks fail etc etc.
there is a kid on one of the commissions, a good kid, he broke his neck a year ago and is a full fledged Quad in a power chair now..he is convinced that he will walk again in 6 months...DEEP DEEP SIGH.
this is why many crips commit suicide, unreal expectations.
one of the many crip listservs i am on has a big tirade about CRIP EMPLOYMENT,really? have they not noticed that the economy is in the toilet and that software engineers are applying for temp jobs paying peanuts? too many people are looking for a neat sitcom happy ending, THINK POSITIVE ya bastids.YEAH RIGHT.
anybody watch THE SHIELD? a great and gritty cop drama with no neat tidy solutions, just like real life. okay okay i know we watch tv and movies to find sh*t we don't get at home, i have seen BUSBY BERKELEY movies of the Depression era but still TRANSFORMERS? SAW VI??
escapism has its limits, even now.
WHAT HAPPENS IF JESUS DOESN'T COME BACK & THE RAPTURE STILL AWAITS...?ARMEGEDDON HAS BEEN POSTPONED DUE TO LACK OF INTEREST.
BTW i have spent two days trolling the bowels of DEEP PARANOIA (go to Alex Jones's Prison Plant and follow the links) the nutbag Right has nothing on the nutbag Left. did you know that Capt.Compromise is a tool of the BILDERBERGERS and has sold our birthright for a farthing ( hint-think Joseph in the Bible)? that the black helicopters of the NEW WORLD ORDER are warming up their engines even now and that the lizardmen of the UFOS cattle mutilation/alien abduction fame are behind the revival of the 70s TV series 'V'.
SIGH paranoid schizophrenics, if you find their bedrock delesuion they can be quite rational, often in dark & scary ways.TOXIC OPTIMISM? they have none. EHRENREICH SUGGESTS WE TRY "REALITY"..IT IS WHAT IT IS and if you don't like it get off your ass and change it.
that is my bedrock delusion FREE WILL and being an INFO SPONGE, TMI? not even close...I THINK A BETTER WORLD IS POSSIBLE OTHERWISE I'D GO EAT A BULLET. WHAT KEEPS YOU GUYS GOING?
not off topic?
"INTERMITTENT REINFORCEMENT IS THE MOST PERSISTENT" this is one of the few things i learned in getting my useless Psych degreee, i beielve its from Behavioral Psych and the scary BF Skinner...now all i remember is this pertains to trans species tests,even pigeons. i think, my interpretation, is that even animals understand the concept of HOPE. these creatures live in the here and now and when they are rewarded they truly appreciate it and hope it happens again. i will not go into a long involved screed about the diff between Toxic Optimism & HOPE but to me, there is a difference.at my commission retreat a cat came to me to be petted, i like cats so i petted him, he came and climbed into my lap to be stroked which i did, then he purred and fell asleep in my lap. we were both happy.
BTW
SOUL MATE is recovering from her flu (she was cleaning and talking politics again) while my fall allergies are still running amok, despite homeopathy & colliodal silver.Capitola is in no danger of washing away altho we did lose power briefly.i have a joke sign on a corkboard nearby "MEMBER OF THE FRATERNAL & BENEVOLENT ORDER OF PESSIMISTS" that's me. i once had a co worker who asked me what i was doing THINKING sez i, DON'T DO THAT.IT'S BAAAAD FOR YAH! that depends...
namaste y'all
semper grumbly
mega
aloha,
BFD Capt.Compromise finally got Olympia Snow's single GOP vote after months of secret negotiating with THE GANG OF SIX and giving away SINGLE PAYER...SIGH.
BARBARA EHRENREICH has written another book and oddly enough it pertains to DISABILITY too. 'BRIGHT SIDED' is about the relentless American Pursuit of Optimism from Christopher Columbus to George W. Bush and Oprah.
think of it as the dumbassification/Disneyfication of America. LIFE ISN'T FAIR & HAPPY ENDINGS ARE RARE..friends die, children die, parents die, people betray & disappoint you, divorce, bankruptcy, our bodies age & die, our health fails,banks fail etc etc.
there is a kid on one of the commissions, a good kid, he broke his neck a year ago and is a full fledged Quad in a power chair now..he is convinced that he will walk again in 6 months...DEEP DEEP SIGH.
this is why many crips commit suicide, unreal expectations.
one of the many crip listservs i am on has a big tirade about CRIP EMPLOYMENT,really? have they not noticed that the economy is in the toilet and that software engineers are applying for temp jobs paying peanuts? too many people are looking for a neat sitcom happy ending, THINK POSITIVE ya bastids.YEAH RIGHT.
anybody watch THE SHIELD? a great and gritty cop drama with no neat tidy solutions, just like real life. okay okay i know we watch tv and movies to find sh*t we don't get at home, i have seen BUSBY BERKELEY movies of the Depression era but still TRANSFORMERS? SAW VI??
escapism has its limits, even now.
WHAT HAPPENS IF JESUS DOESN'T COME BACK & THE RAPTURE STILL AWAITS...?ARMEGEDDON HAS BEEN POSTPONED DUE TO LACK OF INTEREST.
BTW i have spent two days trolling the bowels of DEEP PARANOIA (go to Alex Jones's Prison Plant and follow the links) the nutbag Right has nothing on the nutbag Left. did you know that Capt.Compromise is a tool of the BILDERBERGERS and has sold our birthright for a farthing ( hint-think Joseph in the Bible)? that the black helicopters of the NEW WORLD ORDER are warming up their engines even now and that the lizardmen of the UFOS cattle mutilation/alien abduction fame are behind the revival of the 70s TV series 'V'.
SIGH paranoid schizophrenics, if you find their bedrock delesuion they can be quite rational, often in dark & scary ways.TOXIC OPTIMISM? they have none. EHRENREICH SUGGESTS WE TRY "REALITY"..IT IS WHAT IT IS and if you don't like it get off your ass and change it.
that is my bedrock delusion FREE WILL and being an INFO SPONGE, TMI? not even close...I THINK A BETTER WORLD IS POSSIBLE OTHERWISE I'D GO EAT A BULLET. WHAT KEEPS YOU GUYS GOING?
not off topic?
"INTERMITTENT REINFORCEMENT IS THE MOST PERSISTENT" this is one of the few things i learned in getting my useless Psych degreee, i beielve its from Behavioral Psych and the scary BF Skinner...now all i remember is this pertains to trans species tests,even pigeons. i think, my interpretation, is that even animals understand the concept of HOPE. these creatures live in the here and now and when they are rewarded they truly appreciate it and hope it happens again. i will not go into a long involved screed about the diff between Toxic Optimism & HOPE but to me, there is a difference.at my commission retreat a cat came to me to be petted, i like cats so i petted him, he came and climbed into my lap to be stroked which i did, then he purred and fell asleep in my lap. we were both happy.
BTW
SOUL MATE is recovering from her flu (she was cleaning and talking politics again) while my fall allergies are still running amok, despite homeopathy & colliodal silver.Capitola is in no danger of washing away altho we did lose power briefly.i have a joke sign on a corkboard nearby "MEMBER OF THE FRATERNAL & BENEVOLENT ORDER OF PESSIMISTS" that's me. i once had a co worker who asked me what i was doing THINKING sez i, DON'T DO THAT.IT'S BAAAAD FOR YAH! that depends...
namaste y'all
semper grumbly
mega
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