Wednesday, June 30, 2010

HELEN HUNT

"HONESTY IS PRAISED...AND STARVES." Montaigne?


aloha,
transfusion energies continue to seep away but i just had to bitch about this...
CONGRESS HAS REFUSED REPEATEDLY TO EXTEND LONG TERM UNEMPLOYMENT BENEFITS!

IMHO the same peeps who allowed THE BUSH CRIME FAMILY to rape and ravage our economy and then sponsored a MASSIVE BAILOUT to the perps & bankers are telling the poor,impoverished and outsourced jobless to get off their "lazy asses" and go find work.
i tell you, Chinese is NOT an easy language to learn, i have tried and admitted defeat.so we have more unnecessary foreclosur3es, starving families, crimes of desperation yada yada yada just becuz some fat arrogant fossilized old bastards in the marble mausoleum we call our gummint has decided NOT TO HELP.

HUGE HUGE SIGH.
have things ALWAYS BEEN THIS F*CKED UP and i not noticed?
O BOMBER PROMISED CHANGE..SPARE CHANGE maybe?

not one peep of protest from 1600 Penn, populist much?

think it was Harry Truman who said IF YOU WANT A FRIEND IN WASHINGTON, BUY A DOG!

or to recap the punchline from an old Moms Mabley routine
"if you're looking for ....GO TO HELEN HUNT for it." (say it aloud /smirky)

BTW the canucks spent $1 Billion on cops OT and cop toys for the G 20 SUMMIT IN TORONTO.what a waste of resources, 80,000 homeless could have been helped some.
sources BBC NEWS & DEMOCRACY NOW.

BTW2 like the new template? looks easier to read methinks.

MINISTRY OF MAYBE
namaste y'all
mega moody

Friday, June 25, 2010

SAIL ON DENIAL

"All victories are temporary, all defeats are permanent." Beserkeley axiom

aloha,
thanks Chriss, they have ruled out most things and most tests. maybe new eyes at Stanford this summer???

after the CT SCAN Iodine IV my normal sleep cycle was shattered, was averaging about 45-75 minutes sleep per nite, NOT ENUFF! did a NO NO and took some of SM's recent meds, for a stomach problem so far still undiagnosed SIGH,and now get 5 to 8 hours per nite again. still NOT 100% BUT BETTER...

misc thots.
McChrsytal..did he jump or was he pushed?

"the Saudi Arabia of Lithium" (a crucial element in most Green devices) is...
a.Bolivia
b.Afghanistan
c.both

the answer is c. Afghanistan is apparently sitting atop 1-3 TRILLION IN MINERAL WEALTH per BBC News and other sources this week. CHINA is already engaged in contracts for Bolivian mining, can or afghani allies be far behind?

with that kinda wealth, thus far untouched, couldn't we remove ALL US TROOPS AND LET THEM HIRE BLACKWATER INSTEAD?

given the level of pervasive corruption in the Karzai cabal this looks like yet another shakespearean tragedy waiting to unfold, Karzai or the Taliban..between the devil and the deep blue sea?

O BOMBER STILL THINKS WE CAN "WIN" IN AFGHANISTAN...and Denial is not just another river in egypt!

BTW Chriss you mentioned a cable tv diagnosis,i wrote a story once based on a pair of con artists who bilked hospitals and restaurants by the man's ability to vomit up blood, apparently at will with no internal side effects.maybe i should mention this to my doc, i DO have fx from the anemia and mysterious blood loss.


the county budget has come in for 2011-12 with another 20% cut in human services with more promised for next year. i volunteer for FREE and even then they have cut back our meetings by 50% HUGE HUGE SIGH.
makes it damn hard to enjoy summer eh?

MINISTRY OF BUDGET MISERY
namaste y'all
mopey mega

Friday, June 18, 2010

STILL BROKEN

"My heart is Full.." JoAnne Woodward, from play/film THE EFFECT OF GAMMA RAYS ON MAN IN THE MOON MARIGOLDS.(read the play & Loved the film)

aloha,
i am reminded of the parable of the five blind men exploring an elephant. i have just spent the last 21 hours in a local ER and hospital room.the food is better than i remember...but it has been awhile since 1991.

depending on which me3dico i choose to believe..
1. i have a severe iron deficiency which leads to crippling anemia.
2. i have the above PLUS A DRAMATICALLY ENLARGED HEART.
3. i have #2 due to my apnea machine plus related labored breathing.
4.i am a waste of time & resources attempting to, and getting, and all nite long needless transfusion...
5.i am less a cranky old bitter bastard then the pathetic hypochondriac COPD apnea machine dependent nabe who kept me awake all nite BITCHING & BITCHING & BITCHING..

so now i have a hole in my vein the size of a .38 slug and my low iron has been temp resolved by the blood transfusion but as for a DEFINITIVE DIAGNOSIS...the Lab Coat Jury is STILL OUT.
MY INTERNAL BLEEDING CONTINUES UNEXPLAINED despite several MANUAL ANAL PROBES last nite HUGE HUGE SIGH.

so now,
i have to EAT A BLAND DIET, EXERCISE & LOSE WEIGHT...if i can mange the last two without falling over...our nabe an 88 year old frail white well dressed & coifed granny fell recently and people stepped over & around her and she dresses MUCH BETTER THAN I DO.

BTW a very nonsense German matron scrubbed me like a draught horse this ayem, sensual & interesting but not erotic.
I FEEL BETTER NOW THAN I DID YESTERDAY BUT IT'S POSSIBLY ONLY A TEMP THING...

the weather is sorta wonderful and the tourists are back like maggots swarming on a carcass.Life is Good?

MINISTRY OF MEDICAL JUJU
namaste y'all peeps
mega

Sunday, June 6, 2010

ROBOTS IN MUU MUUS

on jewelry
'I don't want nothing om my arm but my watch and MY MAN." SOUL MATE @18 years ago

aloha,
Chriss ON DETACHMENT...yes i am addicted to Knowledge & have no plans to change just now.i am NOT A JEDI NOR A BUDDHA, i try 2B a boddhisatva and fail often.pay it forward.
it is what it is,so am i...SIGH.
re read the original blogs, i am not NICE gave up on that years ago.

"COME TO THE DARK SIDE..WE HAVE COOKIES!"
taped to my creaky stemapunk PC b4 me as i type...

meanwhile
ROBOTS
did you know that a few years ago the Japanese tried to outsource their elderly to South Korea and Thailand, the elders refused to go so now the J ar4e attempting to robotize healthcare for the elderly.today there was an article in the SF Chronicle on the same subject here in the US of Amnesia, i was teasing SM about it over breakfast this ayem.she protested that the robot in the picture would not look good in a muu muu, good point.

HAPPY VALLEY
speaking of de-tachment, notice no wordy blogs this week?
when your doc keeps tossing out words like CANCER & PRE-CANCEROUS it tends to focus the mind like a laser as do CT SCANS & iodine drinks/IVs WHICH COULD, JUST POSSIBLY, CAUSE TOTAL RENAL FAILURE WITH THE DRUGS YOUR ARE CURRENTLY TAKING...WTF?

anyway, after feeling lower than whale sh*t for weeks i had a good nites sleep and went to a Happy Valley potluck house party on saturday with SM, who sang with THE RAGIN' GRANNIES before a remarkable bluegrass band (B Creek?) sang their hearts out.i ate more than even i could believe, the most in weeks & weeks, and sweated in the 80 degree plus shade. IT WAS WONDERFUL! I HAD A GREAT TIME & GREAT FOOD WITH GOOD PEEPS.tomorrow i am set to give more blood again HUGE HUGE SIGH.

i play to my strengths, which are few & dwindling.

MINISTRY OF ANTAGONISMS
namaste y'all
mad mega