STILL BROKEN

"My heart is Full.." JoAnne Woodward, from play/film THE EFFECT OF GAMMA RAYS ON MAN IN THE MOON MARIGOLDS.(read the play & Loved the film)

aloha,
i am reminded of the parable of the five blind men exploring an elephant. i have just spent the last 21 hours in a local ER and hospital room.the food is better than i remember...but it has been awhile since 1991.

depending on which me3dico i choose to believe..
1. i have a severe iron deficiency which leads to crippling anemia.
2. i have the above PLUS A DRAMATICALLY ENLARGED HEART.
3. i have #2 due to my apnea machine plus related labored breathing.
4.i am a waste of time & resources attempting to, and getting, and all nite long needless transfusion...
5.i am less a cranky old bitter bastard then the pathetic hypochondriac COPD apnea machine dependent nabe who kept me awake all nite BITCHING & BITCHING & BITCHING..

so now i have a hole in my vein the size of a .38 slug and my low iron has been temp resolved by the blood transfusion but as for a DEFINITIVE DIAGNOSIS...the Lab Coat Jury is STILL OUT.
MY INTERNAL BLEEDING CONTINUES UNEXPLAINED despite several MANUAL ANAL PROBES last nite HUGE HUGE SIGH.

so now,
i have to EAT A BLAND DIET, EXERCISE & LOSE WEIGHT...if i can mange the last two without falling over...our nabe an 88 year old frail white well dressed & coifed granny fell recently and people stepped over & around her and she dresses MUCH BETTER THAN I DO.

BTW a very nonsense German matron scrubbed me like a draught horse this ayem, sensual & interesting but not erotic.
I FEEL BETTER NOW THAN I DID YESTERDAY BUT IT'S POSSIBLY ONLY A TEMP THING...

the weather is sorta wonderful and the tourists are back like maggots swarming on a carcass.Life is Good?

MINISTRY OF MEDICAL JUJU
namaste y'all peeps
mega