adress book

blood on the floor
again.
my address book
i look down
my address book is full
of ashes, a cemetary
of dead friends.
some older but
most younger,
all dead
of natural causes....
mostly suicide.
i understand and
often envy them
but
 it seems my path is longer
with many gifts still left unfinished
until my name too
is crossed off somewhere
in some other
address book....