"In the Country of the Blind the One-Eyed Man is King." H.G.Wells
i wish.
aloha again,just a morning scramble today.
1. H.R. 676 'Expanded and Improved Medicare for All' sponosred by John Conyers D.Mich and 64 co-sponosers (per today's Amy Goodman column,see the Democracy Now website too) is the simple economical and competitive response to crippling employer sponsored healthcare,so of course it is being sh*tcanned in DC,again.
2. my hands
my hands hurt
my hands hurt from neuropathy,carpal tunnel,Lyme and some as yet unexplained tremors which are increasing.
makes it hard to type.(frowny emoticon here)
3.my friend ISIS has suggested we invent fun disability games.
3 legged race anyone?crip in a sack? crip pinyatas? braille hide & seek? the phone company invented blind baseball years ago with beeping baseballs.adaptive technology for blind soccer or football??? just a thot.
4.listening to Gore Vidal on CSPAN as i type this,fascinating.
by following the odd links connected to this blog my friend Isis has found some crip smut (?) will check it out and get back to you.
4.i resolve every year NOT to get a new diagnosis,did okay the last two years. this year i have failed.
some kind of vague kidney blockage and now possible/alleged VICODIN/TYLENOL damage of the liver,still to be confirmed plus now my PCP wants a CT Scan of my pneumonia damaged lungs (sigh).it is what it is.
in other news,
the internet is claiming now that Lyme disease causes aggression and homicidal psychosis. okay, i can live with that.
if i do Go Postal i hear the psych prison food is slightly better than Gen Pop.
ARRRRRGGGGGGH!
namste
semper gumby
mega
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
SPIRITUAL WOUNDS
"Humankind cannot bear very much reality." T.S.Eliot
aloha again,
for once i don't have answers so please bear with me.
a radio talk show caller asked the host not to use the childish word GREEDY,(for the current economic meltdown/bailout/fraud) but instead to use MONEY ADDICTION to denote an uncontrollabe lust and striving.the caller did not ask WHY? why do we use more drugs than other countries? how deep is the Hole that must be filled with addictions to sex,drink,drugs,violence,fast cars,consumerism and debt?
i admit i am screwed up,just read this blog it's no secret, but i somehow found Soul Mate and have not screwed that up.
okay it's time to bring out CYRUS (real name).back in the mid 90s Soul Mate and i went to Harbin fairly regularly (it's a clothing optional spa/campground just beyond Calistoga).one sunset i was sitting at a dry well near the cafe waiting for SM when this old plump white guy sat down nearby and started talking to me. his name was Cyrus and he was dying of prostate cancer,he claimed to have made and lost millions over his career and knew his third and last wife had married him just for his money. all his children hated him and only tolerated him to keep their checks coming.he was at Harbin because one of his kids was groupie idolizing some guru there and he wanted to have a heart to heart afterwards.
"where did i go wrong? i made money.i had power over people.how come i'm so unhappy?" or words to that effect. then he said to me, a fat black pain straddled poor crip that i must be as miserable as he.right on cue SM came out,topfree, and kissed me on my bald pate.i stated that despite poverty and obvious infirmity i was Happy with my life,mate,children,hobbies and situation.Cyrus obviously didn't want to hear this... while giving blood this week (again) i heard a self proclaimed 90 year old woman in a wheelchair state to her caregiver." i hate family. i've never had one and i resent these people trying to include me in theirs!" it is what it is apparently.
now i minored in NATIVE AMERICAN HISTORY (A MAN CALLED HORSE,DANCES WITH WOLVES etc) at City College SF and had many classmates who were NAs too.some of them,the more spiritual, had no Hole that i could recognize despite being poor and having alcoholic relatives and friends. IMHO they were TOO SPIRITUAL for this modern world.this cutthroat, dog eat dog,feed the rich & screw the poor necropolis.
now a society which literally has people from all over the world should be more balanced,right? but we're not? we rape the planet for transient wealth and we rape and sell people for the same reasons.back @1970 the NY Times had a quote from somebody famous (no prize if u know who) 'THEY STEAL OUR DREAMS THEN SELL THEM BACK TO US". priceless (see Hippie Nostalgia used for commercials and PBS pledge drives).
i am a history buff and i loved the ROME series on HBO but it made me quite uncomfortable with the parallels to our current mess.is the Greco Roman template of Western Society the basis for The Hole? is emptiness and self loathing our heritage then? my friend KORAK THE KILLER was empty,hollow and addictive.i loved & trusted him but knew his flaws.when i hear about serial killers and shootouts i always listen for his name.not yet...
like i said, i have no answers this time.i have a bookshelf with books on human Evil (Hitler, the SS,Genghis Khan,Attila,the real Dracula,Elizabeth Bathory)even tracing it back thru Hindu pre-history and even several books on ADDICTIVE SOCIETY don't fill all the gaps. what went wrong? why aren't we as a people more Happy? is The Hole the Mark of Cain, the first city builder of The Bible? just asking, thanks for listening.
in other news,
Medicare For All appears to have been smothered in the cradle. look for the Same Old Same Old with fancy frosting out of DC (sigh then die). the dumbassification of America continues...
namaste
semper grumpy
mega
aloha again,
for once i don't have answers so please bear with me.
a radio talk show caller asked the host not to use the childish word GREEDY,(for the current economic meltdown/bailout/fraud) but instead to use MONEY ADDICTION to denote an uncontrollabe lust and striving.the caller did not ask WHY? why do we use more drugs than other countries? how deep is the Hole that must be filled with addictions to sex,drink,drugs,violence,fast cars,consumerism and debt?
i admit i am screwed up,just read this blog it's no secret, but i somehow found Soul Mate and have not screwed that up.
okay it's time to bring out CYRUS (real name).back in the mid 90s Soul Mate and i went to Harbin fairly regularly (it's a clothing optional spa/campground just beyond Calistoga).one sunset i was sitting at a dry well near the cafe waiting for SM when this old plump white guy sat down nearby and started talking to me. his name was Cyrus and he was dying of prostate cancer,he claimed to have made and lost millions over his career and knew his third and last wife had married him just for his money. all his children hated him and only tolerated him to keep their checks coming.he was at Harbin because one of his kids was groupie idolizing some guru there and he wanted to have a heart to heart afterwards.
"where did i go wrong? i made money.i had power over people.how come i'm so unhappy?" or words to that effect. then he said to me, a fat black pain straddled poor crip that i must be as miserable as he.right on cue SM came out,topfree, and kissed me on my bald pate.i stated that despite poverty and obvious infirmity i was Happy with my life,mate,children,hobbies and situation.Cyrus obviously didn't want to hear this... while giving blood this week (again) i heard a self proclaimed 90 year old woman in a wheelchair state to her caregiver." i hate family. i've never had one and i resent these people trying to include me in theirs!" it is what it is apparently.
now i minored in NATIVE AMERICAN HISTORY (A MAN CALLED HORSE,DANCES WITH WOLVES etc) at City College SF and had many classmates who were NAs too.some of them,the more spiritual, had no Hole that i could recognize despite being poor and having alcoholic relatives and friends. IMHO they were TOO SPIRITUAL for this modern world.this cutthroat, dog eat dog,feed the rich & screw the poor necropolis.
now a society which literally has people from all over the world should be more balanced,right? but we're not? we rape the planet for transient wealth and we rape and sell people for the same reasons.back @1970 the NY Times had a quote from somebody famous (no prize if u know who) 'THEY STEAL OUR DREAMS THEN SELL THEM BACK TO US". priceless (see Hippie Nostalgia used for commercials and PBS pledge drives).
i am a history buff and i loved the ROME series on HBO but it made me quite uncomfortable with the parallels to our current mess.is the Greco Roman template of Western Society the basis for The Hole? is emptiness and self loathing our heritage then? my friend KORAK THE KILLER was empty,hollow and addictive.i loved & trusted him but knew his flaws.when i hear about serial killers and shootouts i always listen for his name.not yet...
like i said, i have no answers this time.i have a bookshelf with books on human Evil (Hitler, the SS,Genghis Khan,Attila,the real Dracula,Elizabeth Bathory)even tracing it back thru Hindu pre-history and even several books on ADDICTIVE SOCIETY don't fill all the gaps. what went wrong? why aren't we as a people more Happy? is The Hole the Mark of Cain, the first city builder of The Bible? just asking, thanks for listening.
in other news,
Medicare For All appears to have been smothered in the cradle. look for the Same Old Same Old with fancy frosting out of DC (sigh then die). the dumbassification of America continues...
namaste
semper grumpy
mega
Monday, March 9, 2009
FROM THE HEART
aloha again,
IMHO thot WATCHMAN should have been longer and darker,but i liked it.not as much as DARK KNIGHT but still tasty.
have been razzed for including myself among 'shamanic types' or some such.
let me explain with two snippets.
1.me & Soul Mate lived in the East Bay and the boys,about 5 & 6 at the time,loved Corndonices (sp?) Park above Berkeley.now the youngest used to be a biter but we eventually broke him of the habit.so one weekend he ,the ex biter,was bitten and came and told me,so i asked him to get the biter kid and bring him to me. now i was in extreme pain then and awash in new meds so i talked to the kid like he was one of my own before his minder came and got him.i have no idea what i said. years later,same park, and his minder comes up to me and asks what i said to him as he never bit anyone again.told her the truth, i have absolutely no idea.
2.i worked at Moscone Center for almost nine years.every month or so a private exterminator would come in and spray the place to comply with Health Codes.always the same guy,we chatted as i unlocked dorrs for him but nothing substantial i thot.
one nite he says to me "you're a spiritual guy."
i denied this,saying i never went to church.
"You know what i mean!"
busted.
now pesticide is merely diluted nerve gas (neurotoxins) and his spray stuff was attacking his kidneys and liver,terminally. now he wasn't afraid to die but he worried about his wife and young kids.i think i sat with him an hour or so and told him what i knew about death & dying.it seemed to settle and soothe him.he died ten days later his replacment told me,i was given the message that i had helped. again i have no idea what i said but i spoke from my heart.
now a shaman,despite what you see in movies, is in the subtle business (craft/legacy) of energies,death & dying.experiencing his/her own so they can help others thru the process.i am self taught and probably more wrong than right but i think i have at least a touch of The Gift (or Curse?). see HEIROPHANT in Tarot.
our friend Greg,who died a suicide, was a victim (?) of what i think was a martial arts related Soul Murder,i helped ease his passage,some.he left us a much prized and much travelled Buddha as thanks, his most prized possession.it always has a place of honor where ever we go...this all came up because a lot of our crip freinds and disability allies died last year. about three weeks apart starting about Memorial Day until my son's accident in November ended the streak.i still miss them and bear the burden of their dying.they are missed.
in other news,
i have a minor kidney blockage diagnosed last week which will probably require minor (sic) surgery soon.
will keep you posted. it is what it is.
namaste
semper gumby
mega
IMHO thot WATCHMAN should have been longer and darker,but i liked it.not as much as DARK KNIGHT but still tasty.
have been razzed for including myself among 'shamanic types' or some such.
let me explain with two snippets.
1.me & Soul Mate lived in the East Bay and the boys,about 5 & 6 at the time,loved Corndonices (sp?) Park above Berkeley.now the youngest used to be a biter but we eventually broke him of the habit.so one weekend he ,the ex biter,was bitten and came and told me,so i asked him to get the biter kid and bring him to me. now i was in extreme pain then and awash in new meds so i talked to the kid like he was one of my own before his minder came and got him.i have no idea what i said. years later,same park, and his minder comes up to me and asks what i said to him as he never bit anyone again.told her the truth, i have absolutely no idea.
2.i worked at Moscone Center for almost nine years.every month or so a private exterminator would come in and spray the place to comply with Health Codes.always the same guy,we chatted as i unlocked dorrs for him but nothing substantial i thot.
one nite he says to me "you're a spiritual guy."
i denied this,saying i never went to church.
"You know what i mean!"
busted.
now pesticide is merely diluted nerve gas (neurotoxins) and his spray stuff was attacking his kidneys and liver,terminally. now he wasn't afraid to die but he worried about his wife and young kids.i think i sat with him an hour or so and told him what i knew about death & dying.it seemed to settle and soothe him.he died ten days later his replacment told me,i was given the message that i had helped. again i have no idea what i said but i spoke from my heart.
now a shaman,despite what you see in movies, is in the subtle business (craft/legacy) of energies,death & dying.experiencing his/her own so they can help others thru the process.i am self taught and probably more wrong than right but i think i have at least a touch of The Gift (or Curse?). see HEIROPHANT in Tarot.
our friend Greg,who died a suicide, was a victim (?) of what i think was a martial arts related Soul Murder,i helped ease his passage,some.he left us a much prized and much travelled Buddha as thanks, his most prized possession.it always has a place of honor where ever we go...this all came up because a lot of our crip freinds and disability allies died last year. about three weeks apart starting about Memorial Day until my son's accident in November ended the streak.i still miss them and bear the burden of their dying.they are missed.
in other news,
i have a minor kidney blockage diagnosed last week which will probably require minor (sic) surgery soon.
will keep you posted. it is what it is.
namaste
semper gumby
mega
Sunday, March 8, 2009
U TUB DISABILITY DANCE
aloha again,
nothing heavy this time.
scroll down to the bottom of this page and find that i have added a YouTube web portal.
go down and type in 'DISABILTY DANCE'.
I PROMISE YOU WILL LOVE WHAT YOU SEE!
in other news,
one of the crip listservs i subscribe to had the tag line 'disabilty & hunting'.
oh really? this is a problem? we have crips and vet crips sleeping in urine soaked boxes,in the rain, and some freaks think that crips in wheelchairs should go hunt deer? what about blind hunters? or antisocial bipolar hunters?
IMHO we have bigger fish to fry (sorry,couldn't resist ).
i am off to see Watchman in about 75 minutes, spent hours watching Watchman trailers on You Tube yesterday in preparation.
when my blog gets too glum (which is often apparently) now you can scroll down to You tube and GET HAPPY! or at least visually distracted.
namaste
semper gumby.
mega
nothing heavy this time.
scroll down to the bottom of this page and find that i have added a YouTube web portal.
go down and type in 'DISABILTY DANCE'.
I PROMISE YOU WILL LOVE WHAT YOU SEE!
in other news,
one of the crip listservs i subscribe to had the tag line 'disabilty & hunting'.
oh really? this is a problem? we have crips and vet crips sleeping in urine soaked boxes,in the rain, and some freaks think that crips in wheelchairs should go hunt deer? what about blind hunters? or antisocial bipolar hunters?
IMHO we have bigger fish to fry (sorry,couldn't resist ).
i am off to see Watchman in about 75 minutes, spent hours watching Watchman trailers on You Tube yesterday in preparation.
when my blog gets too glum (which is often apparently) now you can scroll down to You tube and GET HAPPY! or at least visually distracted.
namaste
semper gumby.
mega
Saturday, March 7, 2009
CANNED FOOD AND AMMO
aloha again
(tribute to my dead buddy Tom from Hawaii)
NPR 1
spent a lot of time in the car this week;doctors,lab bloodwork-twice,CT Scan
(try not to puke!) and heard a pundit say that we will know the ECONOMY HAS HIT ROCK BOTTOM WHEN INVESTING IN CANNED FOOD AND AMMO BEATS WALL STREET. Mad Max time,yippee.
meanwhile here in "Paradise", as some locals and the Chamber of Commerce/tourism call it ,CRIPS ARE NOW FINDING IT EASIER TO FIND CAREGIVERS (due to the 12.3% county unemployment rate,15+% in Monterey)....(smiley face here).
a bitter joke i made up this week
OBAMA'S 5 POINT ALTERNATE TO FORECLOSURE HOUSING PLAN
1.we all get a big comfy box to live in
2. there is a lottery for who gets the dry spots under the freeway during rainy seasons.
3.we sneak into the yards of the rich to pillage their fruit trees (watch out for guard dogs) when not dumpster diving
4.plenty of time to work on our tans at the beach (don't litter).
5.remind ourselves that we're still better off than the GOP tax cuts/do nothing alternative.
NPR 2
great googly moogly,
NPR has discovered the War on Drugs (as Bill Maher says Drugs Won!)
and the bloodsoaked cartel wars in Mexico. don't quote me on the numbers but the USA has something like 5% of the worlds pop yet consumes 60% of the worlds illicit drugs.
why is that? what's lacking in our reality which we need hard drugs to assuage/soothe (wrong word?).is it a Spirutal Wound of some kind like the ancestors worried about? for movies see the xlnt RUSH with Jason Patric & Jennifer Jason Leigh or PANIC IN NEEDLE PARK in NYC with a very young Al Pacino or the obscure indie COOL WORLD shot in Harlem around the 60s or 70s.so you know what i mean,sorta.
SOUL MATE has been riding me about promoting LSD (her opinion) in these blogs, i try to explain that I WAS SUICIDAL BEFORE AND AFTER TAKING LSD THE FIRST FEW TIMES.my fractured ACA/PTSD upbringing had trashed my self esteem and bedrock whatever (sense of selfhood).
i used LSD as a tool,(one among many like the I Ching,Tarot cards,Lao Tsu,martial arts,meditation,chi flow then Zen Buddhism & combat tai chi) to staunch the Spiritural Wounds of my persona. see the history of healing ceremony like KACHINAS,Medicine Man & Wheels,Ghost Dance,White Buffalo Cult & Jung's anima/animus etc etc. unlike Soul Mate i have been a student/Seeker of comparative religions/world mythos since the Baptist chiurch threw me out of Sunday school for asking too many questions.
I AM NOT PROMOTING LSD BUT RATHER INTENSE & UNRELENTING SELF DISCOVERY,BY ALMOST ANY MEANS NECESSARY.
P.S. did LSD from 1969 until @1991,after you unlock the door you put the key back in your pocket.right?
just so you'll know...
in other news,
the sun is shining again and tomorrow i get to see WATCHMAN,
loved the graphic novel!
as Scoop Nisker used to say
"if you don't like the News,go out and make some of your own!" right on.
namaste
semper grumpy
mega
(tribute to my dead buddy Tom from Hawaii)
NPR 1
spent a lot of time in the car this week;doctors,lab bloodwork-twice,CT Scan
(try not to puke!) and heard a pundit say that we will know the ECONOMY HAS HIT ROCK BOTTOM WHEN INVESTING IN CANNED FOOD AND AMMO BEATS WALL STREET. Mad Max time,yippee.
meanwhile here in "Paradise", as some locals and the Chamber of Commerce/tourism call it ,CRIPS ARE NOW FINDING IT EASIER TO FIND CAREGIVERS (due to the 12.3% county unemployment rate,15+% in Monterey)....(smiley face here).
a bitter joke i made up this week
OBAMA'S 5 POINT ALTERNATE TO FORECLOSURE HOUSING PLAN
1.we all get a big comfy box to live in
2. there is a lottery for who gets the dry spots under the freeway during rainy seasons.
3.we sneak into the yards of the rich to pillage their fruit trees (watch out for guard dogs) when not dumpster diving
4.plenty of time to work on our tans at the beach (don't litter).
5.remind ourselves that we're still better off than the GOP tax cuts/do nothing alternative.
NPR 2
great googly moogly,
NPR has discovered the War on Drugs (as Bill Maher says Drugs Won!)
and the bloodsoaked cartel wars in Mexico. don't quote me on the numbers but the USA has something like 5% of the worlds pop yet consumes 60% of the worlds illicit drugs.
why is that? what's lacking in our reality which we need hard drugs to assuage/soothe (wrong word?).is it a Spirutal Wound of some kind like the ancestors worried about? for movies see the xlnt RUSH with Jason Patric & Jennifer Jason Leigh or PANIC IN NEEDLE PARK in NYC with a very young Al Pacino or the obscure indie COOL WORLD shot in Harlem around the 60s or 70s.so you know what i mean,sorta.
SOUL MATE has been riding me about promoting LSD (her opinion) in these blogs, i try to explain that I WAS SUICIDAL BEFORE AND AFTER TAKING LSD THE FIRST FEW TIMES.my fractured ACA/PTSD upbringing had trashed my self esteem and bedrock whatever (sense of selfhood).
i used LSD as a tool,(one among many like the I Ching,Tarot cards,Lao Tsu,martial arts,meditation,chi flow then Zen Buddhism & combat tai chi) to staunch the Spiritural Wounds of my persona. see the history of healing ceremony like KACHINAS,Medicine Man & Wheels,Ghost Dance,White Buffalo Cult & Jung's anima/animus etc etc. unlike Soul Mate i have been a student/Seeker of comparative religions/world mythos since the Baptist chiurch threw me out of Sunday school for asking too many questions.
I AM NOT PROMOTING LSD BUT RATHER INTENSE & UNRELENTING SELF DISCOVERY,BY ALMOST ANY MEANS NECESSARY.
P.S. did LSD from 1969 until @1991,after you unlock the door you put the key back in your pocket.right?
just so you'll know...
in other news,
the sun is shining again and tomorrow i get to see WATCHMAN,
loved the graphic novel!
as Scoop Nisker used to say
"if you don't like the News,go out and make some of your own!" right on.
namaste
semper grumpy
mega
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
CALLING DR.KAFKA
aloha again,
do they give DEATH ROW inmates an alcohol swab before their Lethal Injection? why?
GIGO (Garbage In Garbage Out)
thru my local drugstore i have automated perscription refills,automated by cranky senile chimps apparently.i now have three different Passwords,any or all are Invalid according to their whim.
i get daily online 'phantom refills' which do not exist in this reality. meanwhile,in ths reality, i am expected to get 39 days out of a 30 day refill! plus i have two months of the wrong syringes to go with my insulin.i already mentioned how i got shortchanged on antidepressants for a year,right?
Obama hopes that soon everyone will share in these pleasures.(sigh)
MURDERBALL
my Ex (G?) reminds me that this movie also has CRIP LOVEMAKING along with an undying muscularity of attitude.it played about seven days in S Cruz and i got in on the last day, there were three people in the theater.death,dying and criptitude THE LAST TABOOS?
my carpal blind fingers are not working that well today but i wanted to Vent,so...
in other news,
W is back home drinking again in Texas.GOODY!
is there a snowballs chance in Hell Obama will correct or improve our archiac HEALTH 4 PROFIT system while Sol still burns bright???? me no sabe.
namaste
semper grumpy
mega
do they give DEATH ROW inmates an alcohol swab before their Lethal Injection? why?
GIGO (Garbage In Garbage Out)
thru my local drugstore i have automated perscription refills,automated by cranky senile chimps apparently.i now have three different Passwords,any or all are Invalid according to their whim.
i get daily online 'phantom refills' which do not exist in this reality. meanwhile,in ths reality, i am expected to get 39 days out of a 30 day refill! plus i have two months of the wrong syringes to go with my insulin.i already mentioned how i got shortchanged on antidepressants for a year,right?
Obama hopes that soon everyone will share in these pleasures.(sigh)
MURDERBALL
my Ex (G?) reminds me that this movie also has CRIP LOVEMAKING along with an undying muscularity of attitude.it played about seven days in S Cruz and i got in on the last day, there were three people in the theater.death,dying and criptitude THE LAST TABOOS?
my carpal blind fingers are not working that well today but i wanted to Vent,so...
in other news,
W is back home drinking again in Texas.GOODY!
is there a snowballs chance in Hell Obama will correct or improve our archiac HEALTH 4 PROFIT system while Sol still burns bright???? me no sabe.
namaste
semper grumpy
mega
Sunday, March 1, 2009
MASKED MEDIA
aloha me again,
the chocolate Andy Rooney typing in his bathrobe.
drugstore stiffed me on antidepressants again, will get all ethnic tomorrow when i have more energy.
up and down since 3 ayem, had a beautiful dream where i shook hands with Obama after bitching with others about the challenges he faced.(i listen to WAY TOO MUCH news,radio & TV)
Remember the movie THE DEER HUNTER and the firestorm it caused about Viet vets,what happened? it was on again last note,no biggie.lil changes in the mainstream. was telling Soul Mate aout what i might write about today and she found my explanation ICKY.will try to do better here.
there is a cult movie called CRASH,no not that one,this one stars James Spader,Holly Hunter and Kuri Wuhrer (sp?) and its about a subculture which makes a fetish out of car crashes and disfigurement.it is extremely well done and sexy despite being morbid and eccentric (sounds kinda like me huh?) now this CRASH caused nary a ripple but i think it redefines the meme of DISABILITY wherein we have to re-evaluate what is Sexy and/or Acceptable,our human normalcy beyond the Hollywood Heroic Crip image.we are not all Steven Hawking....
when i was SF State they had a Human Sexuality class (not mine damnit) where they showed videos of CRIP LOVEMAKING then had an actual nude demo of a male quad and his GF where he hammered his good fist aginst her clit until she orgasmed.neat huh?
WE ARE PEOPLE,SAME NEEDS & DESIRES JUST DIFFERENT CAPACITIES.
i have had to deal with many diminishing adjustments over the decades(diabetes,carpal tunnels,osteoarithrits,neuropathy,macular degeneration,Lyme deep muscle spasms and CNS poisoning,bad feet and knees,etc etc etc).at risk for going blind (still) a friend offered to describe PC porn images to me,whatta guy! not sure the blind programs add that feature yet?
the Berkeley PD put out a book on Crip Etiquette years ago and despite knowing beter i find myself making the same mistakes. when i was in a wheelchair for several years everyone talked to my caregiver like i wasn't even there (your basic Potted Plant Peter) .once when we went to the Gay Pride Parade and she was being ignored trying to push me thru i yelled out YOU'RE RIGHT.FROM DOWN HERE EVERYONE DOES LOOK LIKE ASSH*LES! still true.
grit your teeth for this part,collegespeak ahead.
we live in a Greco Roman heritage of Physical Perfection-see Da Vinci & Michelangelo,movie stars Brad & Angie et al ,despite this the Impressionists with all their flaws somehow managed to express their truths as a culturally relevant meme despite the static display of what passed for critical thinking in those days.WHAT YOU SEE OR EVEN THINK YOU SEE IS NOT ALWAYS WHAT YOU GET.(see Van Gogh sidebar)
same topic,another approach (for details Google Cargo Cult),the premise is that any technologically advanced culture will overwhelm then crush the more 'primitive cultures' it encounters (except Ancient Rome perhaps??? and maybe us?) which is why many fear the impact if UFOs are indeed real (don't worry they aren't. the truth is much worse). the Ancestors (so called Native Americans) were a shamanic based culture which accepted and not 'tolerated' diversity in all respects,including gayness.we were Not defective or broken,we were kindred.let me stop here before i get into a rant about massacres,smallpox blankets,gatling guns and broken treaties which continue even today.
PAUSE TAKE DEEP BREATHS...
when i was asked why i took LSD , like eons of esoteric occult veil lifting shaman types before me,i explained ITS LIKE FRENCH KISSING THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE,IMAGINE THAT.ya hadda be there...unlike many but not all acidheads, i used LSD to embrace The Divine thru Absolute Surrender and Meditation.the Universe IS a Van Gogh painting that breathes.OM OM OM...UM?
hmmm,seem to have derailed from my train of thot here.
VIDEODROME with James Woods and BLADE RUNNER offer alternate visions or lens to view reality as does great science fiction.(for you Rampster)
HP LOVECRAFT,ISAAC ASIMOV,PHILP K,DICK.ROBERT SILVERBERG, THEODORE STUREGEON,EE "Doc" SMITH even Charles Fort are the lenses which i used as a child and young adult,along with comix.i could go on,but i won't, with all the comix characters who are blind,deformed, cyborgs, amputees, mutants...you get the idea.
GIGO.
is this blog gone semi incoherent or is it just me?
we have to re-frame and re-imagine disability for the mass culture. IRONSIDE,LONGSTREET,TATE ,THE HULK were all TV series with disabled main characters.did any of them have a sex life or recreations, i don't remember. do you?
in other news,
my bad hip is killing me so i'll stop now.
DISABILTY SNARK YEA!
scan My Blog List,PLEASE.
2 -28 -09 Cat in a Dogs World does a Nice Job on ABLEISM & House MD 'misanthropic jerkitude'.well done,ver well done!!!
namaste
semper gumby
mega
the chocolate Andy Rooney typing in his bathrobe.
drugstore stiffed me on antidepressants again, will get all ethnic tomorrow when i have more energy.
up and down since 3 ayem, had a beautiful dream where i shook hands with Obama after bitching with others about the challenges he faced.(i listen to WAY TOO MUCH news,radio & TV)
Remember the movie THE DEER HUNTER and the firestorm it caused about Viet vets,what happened? it was on again last note,no biggie.lil changes in the mainstream. was telling Soul Mate aout what i might write about today and she found my explanation ICKY.will try to do better here.
there is a cult movie called CRASH,no not that one,this one stars James Spader,Holly Hunter and Kuri Wuhrer (sp?) and its about a subculture which makes a fetish out of car crashes and disfigurement.it is extremely well done and sexy despite being morbid and eccentric (sounds kinda like me huh?) now this CRASH caused nary a ripple but i think it redefines the meme of DISABILITY wherein we have to re-evaluate what is Sexy and/or Acceptable,our human normalcy beyond the Hollywood Heroic Crip image.we are not all Steven Hawking....
when i was SF State they had a Human Sexuality class (not mine damnit) where they showed videos of CRIP LOVEMAKING then had an actual nude demo of a male quad and his GF where he hammered his good fist aginst her clit until she orgasmed.neat huh?
WE ARE PEOPLE,SAME NEEDS & DESIRES JUST DIFFERENT CAPACITIES.
i have had to deal with many diminishing adjustments over the decades(diabetes,carpal tunnels,osteoarithrits,neuropathy,macular degeneration,Lyme deep muscle spasms and CNS poisoning,bad feet and knees,etc etc etc).at risk for going blind (still) a friend offered to describe PC porn images to me,whatta guy! not sure the blind programs add that feature yet?
the Berkeley PD put out a book on Crip Etiquette years ago and despite knowing beter i find myself making the same mistakes. when i was in a wheelchair for several years everyone talked to my caregiver like i wasn't even there (your basic Potted Plant Peter) .once when we went to the Gay Pride Parade and she was being ignored trying to push me thru i yelled out YOU'RE RIGHT.FROM DOWN HERE EVERYONE DOES LOOK LIKE ASSH*LES! still true.
grit your teeth for this part,collegespeak ahead.
we live in a Greco Roman heritage of Physical Perfection-see Da Vinci & Michelangelo,movie stars Brad & Angie et al ,despite this the Impressionists with all their flaws somehow managed to express their truths as a culturally relevant meme despite the static display of what passed for critical thinking in those days.WHAT YOU SEE OR EVEN THINK YOU SEE IS NOT ALWAYS WHAT YOU GET.(see Van Gogh sidebar)
same topic,another approach (for details Google Cargo Cult),the premise is that any technologically advanced culture will overwhelm then crush the more 'primitive cultures' it encounters (except Ancient Rome perhaps??? and maybe us?) which is why many fear the impact if UFOs are indeed real (don't worry they aren't. the truth is much worse). the Ancestors (so called Native Americans) were a shamanic based culture which accepted and not 'tolerated' diversity in all respects,including gayness.we were Not defective or broken,we were kindred.let me stop here before i get into a rant about massacres,smallpox blankets,gatling guns and broken treaties which continue even today.
PAUSE TAKE DEEP BREATHS...
when i was asked why i took LSD , like eons of esoteric occult veil lifting shaman types before me,i explained ITS LIKE FRENCH KISSING THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE,IMAGINE THAT.ya hadda be there...unlike many but not all acidheads, i used LSD to embrace The Divine thru Absolute Surrender and Meditation.the Universe IS a Van Gogh painting that breathes.OM OM OM...UM?
hmmm,seem to have derailed from my train of thot here.
VIDEODROME with James Woods and BLADE RUNNER offer alternate visions or lens to view reality as does great science fiction.(for you Rampster)
HP LOVECRAFT,ISAAC ASIMOV,PHILP K,DICK.ROBERT SILVERBERG, THEODORE STUREGEON,EE "Doc" SMITH even Charles Fort are the lenses which i used as a child and young adult,along with comix.i could go on,but i won't, with all the comix characters who are blind,deformed, cyborgs, amputees, mutants...you get the idea.
GIGO.
is this blog gone semi incoherent or is it just me?
we have to re-frame and re-imagine disability for the mass culture. IRONSIDE,LONGSTREET,TATE ,THE HULK were all TV series with disabled main characters.did any of them have a sex life or recreations, i don't remember. do you?
in other news,
my bad hip is killing me so i'll stop now.
DISABILTY SNARK YEA!
scan My Blog List,PLEASE.
2 -28 -09 Cat in a Dogs World does a Nice Job on ABLEISM & House MD 'misanthropic jerkitude'.well done,ver well done!!!
namaste
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